Hey guys
So, we are already coming to the end of April and that means four countries in the books. It is crazy how fast the time has gone by. I find myself reflecting on what all has taken place these first four months and where I’m at mentally and spiritually. When I first applied to go on this journey I’ll be honest I thought it was crazy and made every excuse in the book to God on why I shouldn’t go. I was like God I cant even get up to go to church on a regular basis and you want to me to go travel the world and tell people about you?? Not to mention at the time of applying I had only been to the Bahamas when I was 18. That was the extent of my travel resume. God with the sense of humor he has just said yup I want you to go so get up and go. What else are you doing?? You want to make a difference in the world? First I want you to see it. I have ran from God my entire life and the calling he has for me. I’ll admit it, ever since I was a kid I’ve gone from hot to cold, dark to light, and always making up some lame excuse why I wont follow Christ. I ignored all the prayers and prophecies over my life about what I was called to do. I think that’s why the decision to commit to this felt so right once I knew I was going. Scary yes! Nervous yes! Anxious absolutely! Questions yes! The list goes on and on when it comes to the emotions I felt and still feel but I knew this was the first major step I needed to take to step into the life I was designed for, the life I was made for.
Other than the lame,liar, punk we call satan I’m my biggest hater. Lets be real, we all are our biggest haters. It’s not enough that we have the devil in our ear daily but then we team up with him and make it even worse on ourselves. The enemy reminds us all the time of our faults, past sins, and failures. I want to remind yall and it’s definitely a reminder to myself as well and that is, you are the only one who can stop you. Look in the mirror and check yourself. When I came out here I had to look fear in the face and tell the enemy the days of you stopping me from going after my purpose are over. If I’m going to be honest I had to remind myself that a lot of the time it’s not the enemy it’s just me. Most of the time it’s me. I had to make a decision to stop stopping me. I can say I’ve grown a lot these first four months. Whether it’s being more devoted to the word or my one on one time with the Lord. To stepping out and praying for homeless people, or preaching and teaching. To embracing Godly community, something I havent truly experienced in a long time on a consistent basis. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again, traveling the world with people you’ve never met,to tell the world about Jesus is not an easy thing. It’s been very challenging at times. I’m so thankful that I dont have to do it alone and that I can lean on God for strength and direction. It’s all about progression not perfection. Praise pause!! God is so good. It all starts with prayer, simply talking to God. My mindset changed once I started realizing that God is my power source and that it is vital that I stay plugged into him through prayer. Some of yall cant go anywhere without your smartphones and Lord help you if it dies. You will do whatever you can to find a place to charge it. See your phone can basically connect you to anything but its useless if it dies and goes without a charge. I’ve now approached my relationship with God like this. The more I stay connected to him the more powerful and more ability I have. He is my power source and I have to stay connected daily. I encourage you to start having a dialogue with God not just a monologue.
Being out here has allowed me more than ever to remember what I am called to do. I wont go into all that in this blog but I’m very aware of my gifts and calling God has on my life. Are you aware of your calling or your purpose? Remember your calling and career may not always be the same thing right away. For years I have always felt underqualified to do what God has called me to do. A lot of that is me and alot of that is the enemy filling my head up with nonsense to try and derail me from moving in that direction. I want to encourage you today that no matter what you are called to do if God is for you who can can be against you?! I know that in the eyes of man I’ll never be qualified to do what I’m called to do and I dont need to be. I’m qualified in the eyes of God and he doesnt call the qualified he qualifies the called. The enemy wants to convince you and manipulate you into thinking you cant move from where you are to where God wants to take you. We have become confused and brainwashed by society into thinking we need this or that to be successful. Or you cant do this and you need to look like that. Its ridiculous if you think about. Stop worrying about what society tells you and start focusing on what God is telling you. Stop comparing your journey to somebody else. Stop comparing your gifts to the gifts of another. God designed you the way you are for a reason and dont you even think about filling your head with lies and saying you dont have any gifts or arent good at anything because you are and you do. Somebody in the world is counting on you and your gifts. Somebody needs you to step into purpose. Dont let the spirit of disqualification control your life. It’s time to let God get out of you what he put in you.
I didnt come out here with expectations. I simply wanted to for once in my life actually commit to something God told me to do and to stop running. I have tried to approach everyday with a sense or purpose but even with that mindset doubt and complacency creeps in from time to time. The feeling of am I doing enough God or what do you want me to do today. I have to remind myself that life is ministry and ministry is life. It was something said to us in training and it’s so true. It’s just to go out and live life and to show Gods love to others. To let him work through me on a daily basis. Little things go such a long way. A Smile,wave,talk to a stranger, sit with that elderly person you see by themselves at lunch. Give somebody a hug. Ask somebody how they are doing and actually listen to what they have to say. Be encouraging to others. Lift people up. The world is beautiful but there are so many people that are hurting and in need of love. In a beautiful world where darkness is constantly trying to expand be the light. We all are broken in some way. We all have things in our life we are going through so instead of constantly comparing or hating or pointing out flaws let’s reverse the trends and start loving more and help eachother work through things. Whether we believe the same thing or not I like to think we can all agree that the world could use a lot more love.
Thank you so much for taking time out of your day to read another blog. It means a lot. More than yall know to constantly receive your support and encouragement. To everyone back home I miss yall so much and pray for you daily. Please, please if anyone of yall need prayer for anything specific please reach out to me on social media or WhatsApp. Myself and my squad would love to lift yall up in prayer. We have some straight prayer warriors on our team and I mean that. So let us know!! We also love prayer too so please be praying for all of us and thank you again for all your support financial,spiritually, emotionally,and all the other ways I cant think of at the moment. I love ya. Talk soon.
