So, as you all know from reading my last blog, I recently had to change routes. If this is news to you, I recently had to change routes. Not because I wanted to. Not because I didn’t want to go on that route. Not because I didn’t like the people. But because it wasn’t in God’s timing for me to go on that route. My heart was set on that route. I was willing to leave yesterday along with all the people from that route as they embarked on their journey with each other and with God. Or so I thought…
The past few weeks have been hard for me. I’ve had a lot going on with work and the responsibilities I have at my church. I’ve been trying to think of different fundraisers I can do to raise the remaining $13,000 I need. I had to sit by and watch my former squad launch without me. Plus on top of all that, I had to make one of the most important and difficult decisions I’ve ever had to make. That was to decide which route to take instead of the one that launched yesterday.
Choosing a new route may not seem like something to hard to do but it is when you like to over think everything and can be fickle at times. Sometimes I don’t know what I’ll be doing over the weekend. But now I was being asked to decide if I wanted to leave in January or August of next year. To go on a route that would go to somewhat dangerous countries or to safer ones. An all South American route, a route similar to the one I originally wanted to go on or a totally different one! Let me tell you, it was not easy!!!
I knew what needed to be done to make the right decision but it still wasn’t easy. I pray about it a lot. Then I brought some family and friends in and asked them what they thought. Then I prayed some more. And prayed some more! God was probably ready to smack me at this point because He had already given me the answer but it wasn’t exactly what I wanted to hear so I kept asking. “Are You sure God? I can leave in January! I’ll be ready by then, I promise!! Please don’t make me wait another year God I’m ready to leave now!!!” But the God replied to me and said something that struck me hard. He said, “But I’m not ready for you to leave yet. There is still more I have for you here before you go. You think you’re ready to leave but you’re not…” Wow… was all I could say. God was right and I knew it but I was being selfish and trying to get my way. I already knew that God had other things for me to do before I left. I had seen that just a few weeks before! But I still was trying to speed time up. To do things in my time instead of in His. I didn’t think of it like that but I was.
After I came to this realization, I knew it was time to make the call. The call that would officially put me on the path that God laid before me. The call that once it was made, there was no going back. No wait a minute I changed my mind. Once this call was made I had set in stone the next two years of my life and there was no going back. But, after what God told me and what I felt in my heart, I knew I was making the right decision. I knew that this was what God had planned for me. Suddenly, the hardest decision I’ve ever had to make wasn’t hard anymore. Because I was trusting in God and I knew that not only was I following the plan He had for me, but I was also doing it in His timing!!!
The counties I will be going to in August 2016 are Ghana, Cote d’Ivoire, Burkina Faso (West Africa), India, Nepal, Cambodia, Thailand (Asia), El Salvador, Honduras, Guatemala, and Belize (Central America). I would love and appreciate any prayers and financial support from you! Thanks for everything you do!!!
