In the back of my head it always seem theres a ticking stop watch. This ticking may speed up or slow down from time to time, but consecutively it ticks till the loud buzzing of a new country suddenly hits. Time can be gone before I can even realize what had happened. Living in the future will always dissipate into the past till my life is to far gone to receive the present given to me every day by staying in the present.
My flesh shouts out lies of miss conceptions on what this time period of life is to cause confusion. Satan will use this confusion not only to distract, but also to skew my brain into thinking its not worth fully investing into the temporary. When satan has a hold of the brain in this concept he will first say this day will soon end relax, take a brake. The flesh will be pleased to relax and indulge in its own pleasers. Now that the flesh is being fed satan will come yet again saying it’s easier to sleep in this week than spend time with the Lord. Then the flesh will come back with a response of its healthy and good to get more sleep plus I’ve been feeling tired through out the day. The tag team has been formed and it’s not long before life is seen as temporary and its not worth investing into. Satan and the flesh will join together to seek to create a culture over my life. If they succeed my reasoning in life will abide by them. My thinking will be it’s good to sleep in because I’m tired during the day; not I’m tired during the day because I’m not being filled by the spirit and my soul is now barring the wait of my unrighteousness.The world race is temporary, but the perception that this race is a temporary time period carved out of my life is false. If back home is viewed as “real life” what is this? Surly it isn’t simply a missions trip or a summer camp with all my friends. The World Race is life and it’s real. Im not on some trip I’m living my life. Yes, this time is passing, but also was the time Jesus spent on earth. He invested all of him self to the point of death on the cross.
I realized I was immature in my view of what being an adult means. At 19 I wanted all that being an adult inquired, but what little do i know about being an adult. I had an underlying perception that being an adult consisted of choosing what I want when I want. On the world race everything is set for me and I missed out on the fullness of many divine appointments God had for me every day because I wasn’t able to make that decision for myself. Matthew 16:24-26 Then Jesus told his disciples, “ If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. 25 For whoever would save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake will find it. 26 For what will it profit a man if he gains the whole world, but loses his soul?”
I am called to pick up my cross every day, die to my flesh, and repent of my trespasses. I have found a new life in truly denying myself every day. Being an adult isn’t choosing everything I want for myself, but moreover it’s allowing God to work in and through my life without letting my flesh prohibit Gods work. I once pushed away the things that are set before me life, but now I’m walking in them with discipline. With discipline comes desires and with desires comes passions.
God is setting a new culture over my life. The world race places you in an environment were growth produces culture. Currently I’m living life in India, but no matter where I go or what culture I’m surrounded by ill always have my own set culture over my life. Culture is set by norms and norms are set by disciplines and disciplines produce desires and desires produce passions. My desires and passions are alining with Gods desires and passions over my life.
-I wasn’t going to type up this blog today, but God clearly told me too in a time we call A.T.L. This stands for Ask The Lord and its a time to Go out into communities seek out where God wants us to bring kingdom. I was getting ready for house visits when God told me to write a blog. I believe God had me write this for someone back home. If you feel God has a word for you in this blog please stop and spend some time to listen to Him.
