(Note: The events in this blog happened about two weeks ago…I had trouble forming it all into words.)
Last night, I was in the throne room with God.
Well, physically, I was at PenHOP (Penang House of Prayer…like IHOP in Kansas City). We were all excited about hours of worship and prayer, and I knew the night would be special.
But, I did not expect to have the most important experience of my spiritual life that night, apart from my salvation.
We had been worshiping for an hour or so, and I sat on the ground, with my arms wrapped around my knees. The keyboardist played a beautiful song, and the worship leader encouraged us to take that time to have a moment with the Lord.
I closed my eyes. It was just me and Him.
Then, I was there. It wasn't a hokey I-flew-up-through-the-clouds transportation, I was just there. I could feel myself sitting on the ground, but I was sitting before the Lord. As I looked up at Him, I could not make out His face, it was too bright. The light radiated out from Him, but it wasn't just light. It was light in every color, like light through a prism. His robe was purple, but at the same time, it was every color.
Tears began running down my face as I sat in awe of the Creator.
It was a few minutes before I saw Jesus standing next to Him. I don't remember what He looked like, partially because of the radiance of the Father, and partially because it didn't really matter. He was there. That's all that mattered to me.
I just wanted to be with them. Before I could realize what was happening, He was beckoning me to sit with Him. He sat me on His lap, stroked my hair, and told me that He loved me, and He was proud of me. The words weren't audible, the just were. It wasn't necessary to use audible words.
Then, I was walking outside, hand in hand with Jesus. We weren't speaking, we just walked. Words can't convey the joy I experienced by just being there with Him. It was just so right.
Then, I was back at PenHOP, sitting on the floor, with dozens of people worshiping around me. I sat in disbelief for a few seconds, but at the same time, with lingering deep contentment.
That just happened.
I had just been welcomed into the presence of Yahweh.
As the feeling of being in the Lord's presence lingered, I tried to get that moment back, but I felt the Holy Spirit telling me that was all for now.
It still sounds crazy, even to me, but I know what I experienced. I'm not sure why He chose to bring me there, other than to show me His glory, and to show me that really, truly, all I need is Him. When I was there, He was all that mattered. Everything else faded away.
He gave me a glimpse of what was to come, and reassured me that there really is no need to worry about things. Whether the money comes in or not, whether we get to stay on the Race or go home, He is still with me. He is still awesome, marvelous, incredible, indescribable.
I have found a peace that I didn’t know I could have. I know what I have to look forward to. And you know what the cool part is? That can happen here. Jesus said it.
ON EARTH AS IT IS IN HEAVEN.
For me, Kingdom is no longer this far off, intangible thing. It is here. It is in us.
Boom.
(On the beach in Tanjung Bungah, Malaysia)
