Honestly, this week has been hard.
My second deadline is coming up next month and I’m nowhere near it.
Funds are coming in slowly, but aren’t adding up fast enough.
Doubt is starting to creep in.
Fear is starting to rise up.
Anger is starting to capture my thoughts.
Why isn’t God providing for me?!
Why don’t I have an army of supporters with an abundance of money to send me to the nations?!
Does God not want me to go? Is it something I’m doing wrong?
Yesterday, as I was drowning in self-pity, I started to cry and ask God all of these questions.
After I got myself together, I did what any grown woman would do…I called my Mama. 
As I began to tell her how my day had been, I started to cry again. She listened to me ramble for a second and then interrupted me. In her calm, mom voice she said “Have faith. God will provide.”
Ugh, that’s all?! Nothing else to cheer me up?! How many times have I heard this? How many times have I repeated this to myself for reassurance?
Those words made me think though.
“Have faith. God will provide.”
Have Faith.
How much faith would I have to have if my parents just wrote me a check for $15,500?
How much trust in God would I need if I didn’t have to rely on Him?
Having faith is hard. Trusting God is hard.
How does that saying go? – “No good thing ever comes easy”….well this is definetly not easy.
But I know that it’s of God, and with God all things are good.
Making me trust Him, making me rely on Him, and making me have unshakable faith – its all good.
My mom always says, “No one can out-give God.” (She’s a wise one, that mom of mine)
Jehovah-jireh. The Lord is my provider.
I’m declaring that I have the faith of Abraham. When it seems that there’s no other possible way, God will provide.
No longer will I let the enemy try to steal my joy. No longer will I let doubt get in the way of walking on the Lord’s path. And no longer will I second guess my calling to the World Race.
“So don’t worry about these things, saying, ‘What will we eat? What will we drink? What will we wear?’ These things dominate the thoughts of unbelievers, but your heavenly Father already knows all your needs.” Matthew 6:31-32
He already knows my needs.
He knows that I need $3000 by December 18th in order to leave in January.
He knows that I need $15,500 total, by July, in order to continue on the Race until next November.
He knows that I dont have the funds to pay for this by myself.
He knows all of this. And He has a plan.
My Savior can move the mountains,
calm the storms,
heal the sick,
make the weak strong,
raise the dead to life,
do the impossible,
and love us with an everlasting, relentless and eternal love
If He can do all of these things, why couldn’t He provide me with $15,500?
Of course He can!
And I have faith that He will.
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For those of you that have already supported me financially as well as prayerfully – thank you! I appreciate everything that you have done and continue to do.
I love you all
