I’ve had a really eventful last few days. Thursday morning I went outside in -30 to start my car to go to work. I forgot to plug it in, but luckily it started anyway. Although I drove barely out of my driveway and the car failed me. It stopped working. I was by my neighbors house and asked them to help me, since all my family members were all at work. My neighbor called her husband who drove 20 min from his work to come and tow my vehicle off the road and back to my house. He then drove me to work. At work I am trying to figure out, “What am I going to do for a vehicle?” So I phone my dad and ask if I can use a vehicle that he wasn’t using. He said he would think about it and let me know that night. Throughout the day I was praying and asking God to help me in this situation. The words from a popular Hillsong song called “Oceans (where feet may fail)” came to my mind. There is a line that says, “You’ve never failed and You won’t start now”.
Now to back track, I finished my last year of Bible College in May. I did not have a vehicle. I was planning on buying one. But plans changed and my younger brother said I can use his because he was going to buy a new one. But he had to fix it up a bit first. So I still needed a vehicle. I then was blessed by my older brother who let me use his car, then my dad’s car and at times got to drive my moms. I went the past 7 months without having to buy a vehicle! God provided vehicles for me before I leave in January and He wasn’t about to fail me now.
So that night, my dad phoned and said, “You can borrow the vehicle until you leave”.
Woo Hoo! Right?
Well, not exactly. The vehicle was working this summer perfectly fine, but it has been sitting for a while. It took a while to boost the dead battery, and it’s been having trouble keeping it’s charge. We are currently working on it to get it fixed.
I am having trouble lately resting on God’s promises and rejoicing in the trials.
The Bible shows us:
God is in Control.
God is our Provider.
God loves His Children.
God is Bigger than all our problems.
But I have been trying to do things without Him. I have been striving to get things done my way. And it is not working out so good. (Can you relate?)
Last night, as I was expressing my frustrations to a friend. He took me to his vehicle to listen to a song. It is called “What Can I Do” by Tye Tribbett. Here is the link. I encourage you to listen to it.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Oe9qRXe9yAc
While I was listening to this song, Jesus spoke to me and said, “Jordan, you had your turn, now it’s My turn“.
What this meant to me was that I need to stop having expectations of what I believe God is going to do. I have been limiting what God can do to mere human terms. God is so much bigger than that. He is wanting me to stop trying to get things done my way and start doing things His way. It works a lot better that way. The same God that created the universe with Words is more than capable to provide a vehicle. The same God that breathed into man the breath of life, can provide every Nickle (we don’t use pennies in Canada any more) I need for this missions trip and way more. In my earthy eyes, it’s hard to see, but when I look to God and ask Him to see with Spiritual eyes, I see that He is bigger than this situation.
I have been realizing that I truly cannot do this life without Him. And He doesn’t want me to. He desires to do life with me. So I surrender to Him. The God that has it all together. So that when I am falling apart, I can fall into His arms and He can catch my brokenness and put me back together.
So, Even when my cars fail me, Jesus never will. I need Jesus.
Can you be praying for me in this time? Pray that this new vehicle will all work out. Pray that these lessons I am learning would truly stick and that I won’t have to come back to this later on in life. Pray for my last 8 weeks in Canada to go smoothly. And lastly, pray for my relationship with Jesus, that I would grow closer and closer each day I live.
Thank You friends and family. I am truly blessed to have you in my life.
Your bro, Jordan Tarant
