Hey everyone, I have not posted a blog in awhile and I am sorry about not updating yall. Between graduating and fundraising and my final softball season I have learned a lot and grown and wanted to share with everyone what God has been teaching me lately.
God is so good. Recently I have been doubting a lot of things in my life and wondering how am I going to go for 9 months away from everything I know? I am very excited to see how God is going to grow me in just 81 days when I leave for 9 months, but I am also scared at times. I do not think you would be human if you did not have a little fear inside you for leaving everything you know for 9 months. When God first put it on my heart to go on this mission trip and called me to apply for the Race it seemed so far away. But now, training camp is just 2 weeks away and then just 2 months after that I leave. It is here but God has been showing and teaching me lately how important it is to TRUST.
Where I am at in my life right now is different than where I was at when I posted my first blog on December 7, 2016 and I wrote about doubting to yall. I wrote on how I did not have to doubt because God was calling me to do the Race and I was confident in that plan He had for me. On December 7th I was a college student with my last semester of college in front of me, my last season of collegiate softball, $14,951 to raise and 9 months until I left for the Race. Now, I have graduated with a degree in Psychology, I have finished my last season of softball ever, I have raised all of my money that I need (PRAISE GOD) and I have a little less than 3 months until I leave….WOW. Time flies and in that short amount of time God has shown me what it has been like to trust Him. Proverbs 3: 5-6 says, “Trust in the LORD with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take.” I have realized that I am nothing and I can do nothing without my Heavenly Father. He is the One who protects me, guides me, loves me, forgives me and is always listening to me plus so much more. He wants me to call on Him and talk to Him but also trust Him. Trusting can be a concept that can be so difficult at times but it is vital in our walk with Him. We have to trust He is with us and we also have to have faith that God is going to do what He says He is going to do.
I had been so confident back in my first blog that the Race was what God wanted me to do and I was excited and ready but then fear struck and I started to doubt. I doubted the Race is what He wanted me to do. I doubted I could raise $14,951, I doubted I was adequate enough to go. But every single time I doubted, God answered me and showed me this was His plan. This was what He wanted me to do and what He was calling me to do. How can I not trust God when He does things like that? Even though there were times I doubted, God was still good and still heard my prayers and still guided me through the season of doubt. I am so thankful that I am not who I was back 7 months ago and that God is constantly growing me and changing me. I cannot wait to see all He does while on the Race not only through me but my squad and all the people I will encounter. It all starts with trust and faith and even though the enemy tries to discourage me and tries to defeat me, the victory has already been won and Christ defeated the enemy at Calvary and I do not have to ever be afraid. Trusting is difficult on your own, but when you have God on your side, nothing is impossible.
With all my love,
Jordan
