Past Couple Weeks…

Experiencing two opposite emotions at the same time has
become a norm in my life. The
first half of my ministry in Thailand was in Pattaya. I had a love/hate
relationship with that city. I
hate the injustice and the sin, but I love the girls and the women mixed up in
that sin.

The second half of my ministry in Thailand was in
Chanthaburi. This was a rural
area, and we were there to teach English. The “rural” and “teacher” aspects are definitely on my list of
“TO-DON’TS.” Immediately I had a hate relationship for this ministry,
especially because we were the only women’s team to change ministry sites. After four days, I began to feel a new
emotion with my hate. By no means would I call it love, but definitely a
GUSTA! 

  This second half of ministry God has been mending my heart,
 because  it shattered in Pattaya. I
was able to spend more time with
 God, and allow him to start filling me up
again. Chanthaburi was
 definitely
a place for me to rest spiritually, and allow God to restore the
 pieces of my heart. I was having conflicting emotions because I was
 recovering from my last
ministry site, while ministering at my new site
 (Difficult).
 
   I want my heart to bleed and break for those hurting in this
world, but
 I will need these times for God to heal it. By the end of these last two
 weeks, my
spirit was able to do a complete 180. I found myself not 
 hating teaching, growing closer with my teammates,
hearing from God
 in a new way, and even having the opportunity to give a
testimony at a 
 couple services.

I wish I had more to write about from my experiences the
last two weeks in Thailand, but I can sum it all up by saying I rested in God,
and he helped heal my heart. My heart has been stitched up from Pattaya. I will
not forget the faces I met, but for now I have to focus on the countries God
has called me to for this season. I’m ready to pour my heart out to the people we will meet in Cambodia
this month. I am ready to break
for more people, and it is only by the grace of God that I get to do that!

That wraps up Thailand, and I will try to do a better job at
updating everyone with my life in Cambodia that starts now!