You can find me on my knees! 1/31/13
Some days I just spend dreaming
Asking will my life have some great meaning?
Some days it’s hard to keep on believing,
When kids are getting shot down and parents are leaving.
Some days I feel ashamed of this nation
Of all the lies, the hatred, the temptations we are facing.
It makes me sick to hear the ways we are treating one another
Rejecting people’s differences. The ones we call” brother?!?”
I hate to see our obsessions
Over power and money, fame and possessions.
Rape and murder abuse and addiction
The fires of Hell are burning they don’t need no more friction.
Some days I seem to doubt His provision
That everything on earth is His decision .
You do what you need to to get that reaction
But as for me in my house I choose a new action
Close the door world I am sick of your disease.
Because tonight
You can find me on my knees!
I have started really liking Christian rap and slam poetry. I thought I would try my hand at it. At one point when I was younger I actually wanted to be a Christian Rapper. We all start somewhere right?
Here are a few old ones…
These were written during the hardest time of my life. It was how I was feeling and I haven’t shared them with anyone yet. We are all human and all struggle sometimes but the important part is that we find hope through the heartbreak. That is what happened to me. Here’s to being vulnerable:/
10/18/11
Beloved
You call me beloved right?
Right now I am not feeling it.
Why are you calling me right now to the things that I am not up to doing?
Why are you urging me forward when all I want to do is give up?
Why are you continuing to tell me how much you love me when I am not really buying it?
What does it mean that I am your beloved?
How should that change the way I feel right now?
How does it change what happened?
I don’t know but can you continue to call me it anyway
Until I do know and believe it again?
10/23/12
Run
I close my eyes and ears because I refuse to acknowledge you anymore!
I put this wall up in my heart that nothing is going to penetrate!
You did this to me!
Have you forsaken my like your own Son?!?!
Did you want me to feel from my parent what he felt from you?!?
I try to ignore, resist, and blame you!
I refuse to forgive, let go, and let you take back control!
But your still small voice whispers through the darkness…
It dissolves something deep within my soul.
Like the walls of Jericho the ones within me are starting to fall down.
Slowly…
Slowly….
I know your truth and the life you bring
And even though I want to ignore and cover my ears
I can hear you whisper still
Beloved…
I love you…
Trust me…
Let me hold you once again.
Run back into my arms.
If you are still with me I want to make sure you know how much hope this opportunity has given me. I was born to change people’s lives and stand up for those who can’t do it on their own. I honestly believe God has created all of us to do amazing things, not to just get by. I am still in need of about $13,000 and I launch in about 150ish days. I am not scared but like I said earlier I am on my knees. Join me?
