So as many of you know, I participated in my World Race training camp in Gainesville, GA this past week. And let’s just say, it was TOUGH! There were many physical obstacles that we were asked to overcome, but the emotional aspect was something like I’ve never experienced before. As many know, it’s hard to look inside ourselves and see things we need to change. Many of us continue to wrestle with internal issues, and this week for me I broke those! I was so tired of living in a life full of doubt and struggle, that I brought it all to the King. I could no longer live with this brokenness and built up walls that caused me such grief.
Psalms 6:3-4: My soul is in anguish, How long, o Lord, how long? Turn, O Lord and deliver me; save me because of your unfailing love.
Many mistakes I’ve made in my past, including my alcoholism, has continued to hold so heavy on my heart for all of these years. This week I laid it all at the feet of God, and can I say I’ve never felt happier IN MY ENTIRE LIFE!!!!
The second night we were at camp, we had a praise and worship session. The entire time I prayed that the Lord would break the walls that I had built so high in my heart and the hate that I began to truly believe about myself. I began to weep uncontrollably. As I continued to pray that the Father would break these walls, He told me to bow down and just worship. At this point, I’m on the ground with both arms in the air, and two people put there hands on my back in prayer. The strength and power in that moment was incredible!!! After crying out to Him for a few minutes, I had the most reassuring peace overcome me, as if to say that all things were forgotten.
If anyone that is reading this is going through tough situations and brokenness, I ask that you please bring it to the Lord. He CAN and WILL remove all of the junk and lies that we tell ourselves and situations we hold so closely to our heart. The peace that you will receive will be something like you have never experienced. We have to remember that the Lord that we serve is STRONG and EMPOWERING. He loves his sons and daughter and wants to mold us in His image.
This week was the most raw and amazing week of my life. Years worth of self-doubt and brokenness was left at the cross. WHEW! All I can say is THANK YOU LORD!!!!!!!!
