Isn’t it ironic that in a season of the Race where I’m not working with a “scheduled” ministry, I feel like I’ve actually been doing more to advance the Kingdom of God than in any other season on the Race?
God has turned my world upside down. I’m just kind of sitting here shaking my head…..and repenting….repenting for how often I have a serious agenda for my time, for my days, for my life…..Jesus help me!
After 3 or 4 days of trying to join one of our teams about 30 minutes from where we’ve been staying, and having things repeatedly come up to hinder us leaving, today I finally started asking God the right questions. Are we really supposed to stay here rather than meeting up with our team? I’ve been so set in my own mindset of what the World Race looks like….what my role as squad leader looks like….what my role as missionary overseas looks like…that I wasn’t even asking Him the right questions about where exactly He wants me right now.
It’s funny because in the past I’ve known a couple of weeks or more before I step into a country which team I plan to stay with and what ministry I’ll be involved in, but this month was different. People on the squad would ask me who I’d be with in Nepal and I didn’t know. I didn’t even know when we stepped off the plane in Kathmandu. Normally that would stress me out, but for some reason it wasn’t. I was even telling people, “this is an ATL (Ask the Lord) month” – having no idea how much God really was intending it to be an ATL month. I just meant I’ll keep asking Him which team I am supposed to be with at which time, expecting to travel between a couple of teams.
As soon as I stopped today to really ask what the heck He wanted us to do it was very clear to me that He is behind all of this. What? You mean it’s okay to stay here. It’s okay to not be living with one of our teams? I’m afraid of what people will think…..hmmm, now we’re getting to the root of some issues.
God is so brilliant….and really…..He’s not in the box I try to put Him in at all!!!
So we called one of our amazing team leaders, Janell, to tell her we actually wouldn’t be coming there after all. God has given us the great idea to have our teams in Kathmandu come to us and experience some of the amazing divine appointments we’re enjoying and just have some good intentional time together. It was cool that she confirmed the idea saying her team had already wanted to come here and take our street kids out to dinner some night (they met a few the other day when they were in the area.)
This evening, in what felt like more crazy confirmation…..we met several new street boys, a man who lives in Nepal 6 months out of the year and runs an NGO to help street kids doing the same things we’ve been doing for the past week, and a Nepalese Christian man who runs a home & school for street kids (both who would like to meet with us tomorrow.) Michael and I looked at each other across a large group of street boys and both said the same thing, “this is confirmation.”
Stay tuned for stories from the streets….
