The last little while has been awesome. We were in China again for a while so there was no access to this site. We got to do so many things and see so many sights! God is still teaching me so much as well. Although I’d love to be home right now and I have a million things to do there I know that God has me here for a reason right now. He is teaching me so much about motives, about my motives for seeking after holiness and my motives in relationships with other people.
“So don’t get ahead of the Master and jump to conclusions with your judgments before all the evidence is in. When he comes, he will bring out in the open and place in evidence all kinds of things we never even dreamed of—inner motives and purposes and prayers.” 1 Corinthians 4:5b
I did a life planning session with the amazing Jimmy McCarty a couple of days before the end of the race and it really got me thinking. There were themes in my life of manipulating people that I had no idea were there. This ties into my motives for why I do things. God has really been diving into this and leading me as to what to pray for in this area and how to stop it from being something that happens in the future.
I really wanted to “do” so much and look for official ministry options for this time after the race, but the Lord has been speaking and saying, “relax.” This isn’t the easiest thing for me to do, at least without feeling useless and discontented, but God has been impressing it upon my heart so often this year it must be important, and it is getting easier to obey.
I am so glad to be with Stacy and Eric to have fun with and spend so much time with, what a blessing they have been. I really think that this time of reflection on the year has been and will continue to be such a needed time for me to really get everything out of the year that I should. Having these life lessons realized and concreted in words or in my mind would probably not have happened at home with all the chaos that that would obviously have entailed.
So, soon we leave on a tour to Ha Long Bay, Vietnam, we are going kayaking, sleeping on an old boat and eating wonderful seafood meals for 3 days, then its back to Hanoi to maybe rent mopeds again and go down the coast…
Thank you so much for the prayers, I’ll be home in two weeks!!! CRAZY!
