So for the past 2 months I have noticed something about how I am living.
I have been just going through the motions; I was thrown off guard when people that have nothing have more faith than I did. It put me in a place that I did not know what to think.
I have been just going through the motions; I was thrown off guard when people that have nothing have more faith than I did. It put me in a place that I did not know what to think.
I told myself I was praising God and serving Him, when in reality I was not giving enough.
He has broken me down yet again; I can feel Him saying “When will you learn”
“When will you give me ALL of you and not just what you think is enough?”
I just want to curl up in a ball, and cry. I have been holding out on God.
I have been lying to myself, and not giving all of me.
God just keeps walking beside me saying “I am waiting”
He has and is still doing everything he can to love us. All he wants in return is us to love Him.
My heart cries out this song.
How much longer will I worship in vain?
How much longer will I say I praise Him, but my heart is far from Him?
I am crying out, take everything!!
Leave nothing of me, and fill me with nothing but you.
Yet I still feel the way I do?
Oh Lord how much longer must I wait?
How much longer must I shed these tears?
Oh Lord when will you rescue me?
When will you take all of me?
Rescue me oh Lord, rescue me form myself!
So as I write this, and as you read. I am getting back on my feet.
I am going to stop holding back, and I am going to run the race.
I am going to stop holding back, and I am going to run the race.
I am going to run, and even when I feel like I cannot go on, or the world says I can’t.
I will ignore them and listen to the Lord as he says keep going.
I will keep my eye on Jesus and dive right in, no more am I going to give just a little.
I am from now own giving EVERYTING!!! If I don’t give everything then I pray that God will break me again and again, and never stop until I have given everything.
I want more of Jesus, I want every breath I take to be a breath taken closer to Christ.
I want my steps to imitate His, my heart, and motions. To my faith and relationship with God.
I want every part of me to be an instrument.
So as you read this, pray for me, and for you. Let’s stop the worshiping in vain, and praising with our lips and not our hearts. Let’s give everything, not just a little, but EVERYTHING.
