So after hearing about Haiti. I started to feel the need to start living fully for God and doing what Jesus did. Go and share the pain and help those in need. I truly want to give up everything right now and just go and do everything I can to help.
But my little securities are holding me down. Like losing my job, everything I still owe. Everything I will leave behind.
To be honest. That is the last thing on my mind right now. All I can think about si those people hurting right now.
They need me. They need us. God is calling us there to help. To sow love where there is pain.
But yet again. the thoughts of everything that will be said when I say I am going. What my parents will think and say.
Just getting up, leaving everything and going out there. Then I start to think about what Jesus said. don’t take up the plow and then look back. You can not be my disciple if you don’t hate your father, mother, brother, and sister.
Meaning you cannot let what they say or feel get in the way of your love for Christ and for His people.
I am really on the verge of just laying everything down and getting out there. I am getting nowhere just sitting here thinking about it.
If i keep just thinking about it I will wind up not going and not doing what I am supposed to do.
So. If I lose my job. So be it. If my parents get mad. So be it. If I lose everything. SO BE IT!! I told God I would do anything for Him, and I would give up everything for Him. It is time to pay up. So if I lose everything. I will still have God. I will still have the love of others who are just as convicted to serving the Lord as I am. It is time for me to go and stop thinking!! Because acting without thinking is faith.
