I have never known fear until I found myself face to face with my greatest enemy. Am I back to reality or am I still dreaming? Either way, fear grabs ahold of me. I can’t move. I can barely breathe normally. Even with eyes that could barely discern my own silhouette, I knew that my room has become a battleground of angels and demons. There is darkness in my room and stillness in the air that seems chaotic and morbid. 5:08:42 a.m. Time still seems to tick by normally. Still, it seems that at that moment, my nightmares followed me into my reality. Nightmares about a different world than what I am normally immersed in. My team and I were in a village in my first dream. We were then greeted by a crowd of people who seem normal until someone, maybe an angel, whispered in my ear to start praying for the people for all of them were demon possessed. So I did, and my team followed suit. After praying for the first man, I turned to the person next to him. As I start praying, “In the name of Jesus, heal this man,” he turns to me saying, “I believe in Jesus” and overpowers me. He pierces my left palm with a nail and puts me up in a post. As he laughs, I kept saying “I will glorify God through it all.” Then the dream morphs into a different dream In my second dream, I was once again with my team. This time we were in a car; four were sitting inside, and the rest of us were sitting on the hood of the car. This time, we were in ancient ruins. Mayans, I thought. As we drive around, we kept praying “glory to God” and the ruins come to life. 10 demons emerge and the ruins started attacking us. We kept driving around and kept on praying until we got to the very end, and the car stops. Ruins started falling down on us. I open my eyes back in my room. In my dreams, logic seems to evade me. The concept of time, something that is too crazy to even fully understand, became my only companion to check back on reality. 5:08:42 I guess I am back. With an overwhelming fear, I had to turn to God. I remembered that love overcomes any fear. I know about love, I believe in love, so I just have to abide in love. My favorite verse, John 1:5 “the light shines in the darkness and the darkness has not overcome it”, comes to my mind and it never rang truer until that moment of my darkness. That is when I realized that I am still able to make out my bag at the foot of my bed. I saw the door and the doorknob. I saw my own blanket, and can even tell the color. I knew, I believed, and I abided in that moment of weakness that God truly is my light in the darkness. Even at the darkest of nights, God’s light can pierce through it. This month, I am giving over my fears and insecurities to God. I know that these are a few of many in my life that God wants to completely immerse in His light. Will you partner with me at this time? Will you pray with me as I consider what it truly means to bring my darkness into His light? Will you consider supporting me financially for me to be able to continue on this journey with my squad mates? Finally, I have one more challenge for you. What is God telling you to give over to Him today? Much like my moment of fear became completely immersed in His light, God wants to fully eradicate every single darkness in our lives. Fear? Insecurities? Shame?
