So tomorrow I fly out to begin the World Race. I would love to say we’re going directly to Cambodia, but we have to go through Chicago and South Korea first. I’m ready to go though. A lot of people feel sad to leave home, but they also feel so excited. I don’t feel either really. I’ve been pretty emotionally level in these past few days. I’m not sad or nervous or scared, but I’m also not bursting at the seams with happiness. I’m just ready. I was talking to another person on my squad and we both agreed that it feels like we’ve been waiting our whole lives to do something like this. I feel like I’m finally stepping into something bigger than me, something that God has been calling me into for a while now. Don’t get me wrong, I’ll miss home and I’m happy to go, but it’s just not to an extreme sense. It’s not like I’m emotionally numb, I just feel at peace with it. I feel like I’m in God’s will, and that’s the best place to be
It’s a really weird feeling saying that tomorrow is my last day in the United States for 11 months, but it’s pretty cool too. Throughout the past couple of days they’ve been talking about a whole lotta things to try to help prepare us, but the thing that caught my attention the most was to not waste our time. They told us that it’s easy to waste time. Maybe you just watch movies and act lazy on your off days, maybe you never really engage in intimate community with your team mates. Whatever it is a lot of people come back feeling dissatisfied with their experience, feeling like they missed out. I know that I don’t want that to be me.
One of the greatest gifts that I am seeking from the World Race is a permanent life change. If I come back the same person as when I leave it will show that I wasted my time. So my hope is that I come back changed.
