God is good. I don’t always see eye-to-eye with Him, but eventually I see why He did what He did. The Spring 2018 semester just ended and I experienced many different things. I felt success and failure in school and learned to expose myself to things that I might not be good at such as hip-hop dancing. I started a radio show. I made many friends. I felt good. I had my heart broken. I left my church. I felt lost. God lifted me out of my dark place and called me to Him again. He called me out of my sin just as He did so many times before.
In February my girlfriend and I broke up and it hurt horribly. The reason it hurt so much is because I turned her into an idol of mine. I depended on her and looked to her for everything and I took my eyes off of God. When it inevitably ended I was broken and in my brokenness I allowed sin into my life. I turned not to God, but to temporary distractions like drinking and surrounding myself with people. This kept my mind off of her, but when they left I had to face facts. I am alone. She is gone. Except, I am not truly alone. My third spiritual birthday (April 3rd) marked a turning point for me. I remembered all of the things that God did for me in my past and that He is still through all of this my only hope. I repented of my faithlessness and returned to Him completely. Since then He has led me to The World Race and shown me that I need to trust Him completely and follow Him without regard for things that stand in the way. He showed me that He will always save me from my sin and that he has a greater purpose for me. My purpose is to serve the one true God.
