So recently I went to The Send. For those of yall who do not know what The Send is, it is a full day conference where 60,000+ people from around the world all gathered in Orlando FL to experience the Holy Spirit and be sent out into the world for missions. I wont get much into the whole experience because it would take me well five blog posts just to be able to unpack everything that I have process so far. The best way to describe the whole event is that the atmosphere was so thin because heaven was so close during the whole event. Not to far away from the end of the event Tod White came out and started praying. He started talking about his past with drugs, sex, and much more. He then started talking about healing, how had been healed from past scar and needle marks on his arms from his past life. He started praying for healing, that the scars would be removed from our bodies. Now about five years ago I was in a accident where I got hurt pretty bad. It was me doing something dumb but after the event I had to have surgery on my left shoulder. The surgery had left some pretty gnarly scars on my shoulder. Due to my injury and the surgery I have not had a full nights sleep since I got hurt. When the prayer for healing of scars began I to wanted my scars be healed and my bone to be set right. I began praying very hard over my shoulder and just kept reminding myself of the gospel. When Jesus healed people he always said it was because of their faith that they were healed. I was praying and praying over my shoulder and and the end the prayer I was hesitant of seeing my shoulder because I did not know if it had been healed or not. I eventually checked to see if my shoulder had been healed and my scares were still there and my bone was still in the same place as before. To be honest I was a little disappointed that the healing that I was expecting had not come. The test of the night was a little different after that for me because there was a small seed of doubt in my mind because I was not healed. The Send Ended and I made it back home and it was about three days later that I noticed that I had been getting full nights of rest. It was a weird feeling to be honest, having a full nights of rest. I was in my quite time and I was going through Luke and again Jesus preformed a miracle and he said, “Because of your faith you have been healed.” That is when it hit me. I had been healed. I was no longer in pain. I was sleeping. I broke down in tears. I expected healing in a way that I thought how it should have happened and because it didnt happen that way I had doubts that I would ever be healed. Because I was so focused on I thought I should have been healed I didnt realize the way Jesus had healed me. These past few months I have been constantly reminded that in everything that I do as a Christian, it all revolves around my faith in Jesus and that has come to save us. That Jesus is Lord. Stop thinking and focusing on how you want Jesus to do for you and change your perspective to what Jesus is currently doing for you.
