I wrote this blog at the end of month 6. But I haven’t been wanting to revisit it until now. Here is a little look into how it went for me doing sex trafficking ministry in Thailand:
The race sucks. You leave pieces of your heart in countries until your heart is scattered around the world.
In Thailand I met a ladyboy named Pat. He was the sweetest, kindness, and most loving person I met in Thailand/the World Race. I created a relationship with him about half way through the month. I would visit him at his bar and we would just chat. About anything and everything and it was easy. Like how you talk to your friends that you have known for months. But I didn’t realize how much he met to me until I had to say goodbye.
And BOOM it hit my like a freight train. A flood of emotions that God can only give you for another person, hit me and the tears were soon to follow. And it sucked…I generally don’t ask for the Father’s heart for people because I know what it means. Sadness and uncontainable love when you have to leave that country. But that is so unbelievably selfish of me and limits the ability I have to love. Thankfully the Lord gave it to me anyways that month.
Something that my contact Pi Emmi said at the end of that month really resonated with me and where I was saying goodbye to my prostitute friends.
“At the start of the month I asked for 100% of your heart-and I think I see right now 1000% of your hearts….now take back the pieces of your heart and go to Cambodia…if there is a little piece of your heart that you can’t get back then come back here, we need your help.”
At that time when I left Thailand I had tons of pieces of my heart scattered on that bar street in the red light district. Although I felt closes to Pat by the time I left, I still had so many friends and faces I will never forget. And it has taken till now for me to think about all the people I met and what it felt like saying goodbye. I know in the future when I do mission trips, sex trafficking will be a big part of it. There was something about the desire and desperation for true love in every person’s eyes that I will never be able to forget.
I hope in the future I will be able to share more on what I saw during that month. But as of right now I can only really revisit those goodbyes I had to say.
I will forever be grateful that the Lord gave me the chance to love on those people. Love is what they truly need. Without the Father’s love they can’t walk away from the chains and bondage they are in-both physically and spiritually.
And I leave you with this. How many people around you are desperately seeking the love of Christ? How many people could you reach if you just asked for the Father’s heart? They may not be in the physical bondage of sex trafficking and prostitution, but the chains on their hearts that you can’t see are just as real.
