Every day I get up and thank God for where he has placed me. Sometimes it comes from a place of joy when I look out from our roof top and see the incredible view of Gods creation. I am in awe of the life I live and thankful that God loves me enough to bless me with a life of adventure. Other times I wake up and thank God for asking me to live a life of abandonment. On days when I feel physically and spiritually drained, when I am exhausted and don’t want to go to ministry I thank God that he has a plan for the day and that he has brought me to a place where I will obey and follow him regardless of how tough it is simply because he asks me to.
However, most of all I am thankful for the simple life. Following God is hard but I think that’s because we complicate things. Personally, I know so often I feel exhausted. I feel like I am not able to give God all that he deserves. He breathes life into me and the only thing that I can give him back worthy of what he gives me is that same breath and I am left drained. I would so badly want to give God my everything but in the chaos of the day forget that he comes first. I am learning now that it’s not about asking God into my day and including him in everything but instead realizing that he is outside of time and he is asking me to join him and be apart of his plan. Its not about me and what I can do it’s about what God is doing already. Since being here in Guatemala, I have been able to see more clearly that walking with the Lord is so much simpler than I ever thought. It gets hard when we become distracted and focus on ourselves and how to balance our lives. It’s hard when we focus on our sins and what we are doing wrong, and it’s hard to accept that we will never be perfect in our love and obedience. But when God is the only thing that matters, when we have no distractions things get a little bit easier. I am excited to learn more about walking with God daily and allowing him to truly be the only thing that matters but I am already starting to complicate things. I think about how I will be able to do that after the race. I know when I get home there will be more responsibilities waiting for me and a routine that I will be expected to fall into. But I don’t want a life with routine. I don’t even want a life with a plan. So I am praying that God can keep life simple and I can learn more of what that looks like and that I can enjoy whats going on now because God is good and life is great.
