Tuesday, September 1
En route to Romania

I must admit that I really like this song by Jordin Sparks.  I don’t watch American Idol but I heard this song and found myself drawn to the lyrics.  It can easily be a spiritual song.  But I have found myself realizing that truth is a battlefield as well. Actually, this has been a constant in my spiritual journey.  Walking in the truth even when I didn’t feel like it.  I got some good advice once – “It’s not about your feelings, it is about the truth.”  That is a great statement in theory but walking it out is a whole different ball game.  Walking it out is actually a choice.  A decision when everything inside of you screams against the truth.  
 
I have spent a lot of time in somewhat of a tug of war.  With one arm pulling on the truth and one on lies and feelings.  When a lie creeps in, regardless of how it got there, I would grab a hold of it in order to replace it with the truth.  I would tell myself the truth.  Scream it out if I had to.  Write it on a card and read it.  What ever it took.  But I found myself frustrated when either it didn’t work or I let the lie arm pull harder.  Thus landing in the mud, face down.  
 
A dear person in my life told me to put my arms down and to rest in the promise of   Matthew 11:28-30 – to rest in Him.  I have worked on that and have had victory.  I was able to further this victory on the way to Romania.  I listened to a podcast by Craig Groeschel who explained the truth.  And the truth isn’t a verse or a statement we tell ourselves over and over again.  The truth is Jesus.  And He wins!  He wins every time.  That may not sound as profound as I found it to be but it is.  I don’t have to grasp to truths that I can beat myself up for not memorizing effectively.  I can drop my hands and let the TRUTH fight for me.  John 14:6 says that Jesus is the way and the truth and the life.  So, in my quest for victorious living, I will cling to the TRUTH and allow Him to fight for me!