Daughter Diaries
Entry #4
May 25, 2010
Phnom Penh, Cambodia
As I was lying in bed concentrating on not throwing up, I remembered my blog. I remembered about pressing in. I didn’t feel much like a daughter. I didn’t feel like His princess at this point. But my feelings don’t make it less valid. Neither do my circumstances.
We were at a book shop this weekend and I found the book Princess Diaries. I debated about getting it but realized that buying an $8 second hand book may not be the best plan. So while I waited for the others to finish looking, I read a little bit of the book. One of the first pages has this quote from A Little Princess by Frances Hodgson Burnett:
Whatever comes she said
Cannot alter anything.
If I am a princess in rags and tatters,
I can be a princess inside.
It would be easy to be a princess
If I were dressed in cloth of gold,
But it is a great deal more of a triumph
To be one all the time when no one knows it.
Today wasn’t a glamorous missionary day with great stories of salvation or healings but it doesn’t have to be. I certainly didn’t wear a cloth of gold today but it doesn’t change who I am. And I would agree that it is a great deal more of a victory to be a princess, to realize you are a daughter when things are less favorable. It doesn’t change His love for me or the fact that He is for me. I am His daughter, that doesn’t change nor will it. I am a daughter of the King, my royalty doesn’t shift with my feelings or with circumstances. Someone very wise once told me, it isn’t about your feelings, it is about the truth. And the truth is, I am a beloved daughter, even when I am in rags and tatters.
