To seek.
I’ve been learning about seeking.
I’ve been reading over and over again in His word His promise to—
“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. “
I’ve been discovering what it looks like for me to become a wholehearted seeker. Recognizing what things I hold onto that keep me from fully seeking and what fears keep me from more of Him.
My hearts desire is to be a wholehearted seeker.
But life is messy.
It gets hard; the path before you blurs, or you can’t hear His voice, and you have to constantly remind yourself that life is a journey.
So what about when seeking Him seems like it will never end? When you feel like you sought him endlessly and you still cannot find? When you feel empty and dry? When you feel weary – like there’s nothing left in you to give? When it feels like you’ve cried out with every last breath within you?
What do you do when it feels like you will never find, receive, or hear?
You keep seeking.
You keep seeking because you know He is faithful. You keep seeking because you can see glimpses of His glory all around you. You keep seeking because you know His love is better than life.
You keep seeking in even the deepest valleys- where He seems far and distant and you cannot seem to hear His voice.
You keep seeking declaring that He is enough, even when you don’t understand.
Seeking is often just obedience.
Obedience to continually come before Him every day and every moment to spend time in His Presence- asking, petitioning, crying out even when we don’t feel Him moving or hear Him speaking. Seeking is being patient in staying before Him, not being eager to leave your place at the feet of His throne.
Sometimes seeking just means staying.
Trusting that He is all that satisfies.
All who fills.
All who brings peace.
All who brings JOY– long-suffering, steadfast joy.
Knowing He is an anchor, a stronghold in the storm and the hope within me.
I pray my greatest strength would be my desire to seek him, to spend time communing with Him in reverent adoration of who He is and what He’s done for me.
He is enough- and that should be enough to stay in the Presence and then, to find complete rest.
