I embarked on the World Race 7 months ago. I may have come with some expectations of things that I would see or experience, things like miracles, healing, lame walking, blind seeing, & God showing up in other big ways. So far though, I haven’t really seen any of that. You may think I am disappointed, and to a certain point, I have had my moments when I have questioned God.
If you are good and want people to be well, why aren’t you healing?
Why is it that I prayed for the blind man 2x and nothing happened?
God are you even hearing my prayers?
I have sat many nights baffled, confused even. Am I questioning my faith in God? No, I believe that he can move and heal supernaturally, but then why aren’t things happening. Why do I feel so far from Him, like I am not hearing from him or that I am walking alone. I want to see incredible miracles and hearings, but the funny thing about God is that He doesn't work how I want Him to or how I think He should.
I realized that I actually have seen the dead raised to life though. Not physically, but I have spiritually. God raised me from the dead, he fought for me and brought me back to life in Him earlier this year. He has also allowed me the chance to pray for 3 men who all received a new life. These men were dead inside spiritually, but the power of Christ has raised them to new life. We, my squad, other believers, my family, and even I are all walking dead, but Christ has made us live! We are walking miracles and sometimes I forget that.
“But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions— it is by grace you have been saved.” —Ephesians 2:4-5
