I'm really good at living in tomorrow.
I will try to explain. See no matter how great a season of my life is, I always seem to look ahead to what's next. As I started the Race I had several goals for myself and I think one of the most important goals to me is that I learn how to be present in this season.
The first couple of days at launch I was convinced that I was doing exactly that until we met with our squad leaders. One of our leaders challenged us with a question God had asked him on his race: Do you desire the gifts more than you desire the Gift giver?
Whoa… the weight of that question hit me almost immediately.
My mind thought back to all of my prep for the Race. Once I was accepted to the Race the Lord began to promise me things that He would do in these next 11 months.
He promised healing in my life. He told me that He would show me the true desires of my heart. He also told me that He would take me deeper with Him this year. Immediately after He spoke these things to me, I wanted them. I didn't care about the process it would take to get there. I just wanted it right now.
At launch I wrestled with this a lot. The Lord would speak a promise over me and I would want Him to give it to me instantly. To be honest, I spent a lot of time being frustrated and confused at launch.
A couple of days ago I spent some time processing with the Lord. He showed me that I was seeking His promises more than I was seeking His presence.
The Lord has promised me some amazing things this year and it's okay for me to be excited about them. But there is so much of HIM that I will miss out on if I am constantly looking ahead to see how He will fulfill each of the promises He has given me.
I want this year to be about going deeper with Him. When this Race is over I want to be able to say that I spent a year truly being in the presence of the Lord and I embraced every second of it, even when it was hard.
It is in His presence that I will be able to love those around me: the people we will serve in these 11 countries, my team mates, my squad mates. It is in His presence that He will continue to shape me into the person He made me to be. And it is in His presence that I will see each of these promises fulfilled.
I am so excited to be on this amazing journey with the Lord for the next 11 months. In order to continue on the Race for the entire 11 months, I still need to reach my last two financial goals:
- $11,000 by December 1st and
- $16,285 by March 1st
I am still in need of $3,675 for my December 1st goal, and $8,960 for my final goal. If you would like to help support me in my Race you can do so by clicking on the Support Me tab to the left. Or you can cut out the processing fee by sending a check made out to Adventures in Missions with WebbJillian in the memo line to:
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