One thing I really struggle with is
receiving gifts from people. I think part of it stems from this
deeply engrained idea that you must WORK for things. And another part
of me feels unworthy to receive the love and support that people have
to give. It is so incredibly hard for me to ask for help and the very
thought of even asking makes me cringe.
I think this is something the Lord is
going to help me walk through during the race. He has already started
this process in me during the season of preparation. See the support
hasn’t come in as easy as I would have thought. And in that I’ve been
forced to humble myself and ask my squad mates, my friends, and my
family to rally around me in prayer.
And they have. Not only have they
fought for me through prayer but they have been so encouraging. In
the past few weeks I haven’t gone a day without receiving
encouragement in the form of a text, an email, or a phone call. God
has seen me riding this emotional roller coaster lately and every
time I need a sweet reminder of who He is and what He has called me
to, He shows me through friends and family, new and old.
Yes, I am still in need of financial
support to guarantee my launch in a few weeks. And yes, that is an
important part. But honestly, it means nothing compared to the love
Christ has poured out on me through the lives of people around me. He
has loved me so beautifully through each of you and I am beyond
grateful. I honestly don’t think I would still be pressing on without
the blessings you have given me.
For my friends and squad mates that
have sat there, just listening as I’ve cried my eyes out. For those
of you who have been given a word of encouragement for me and shared
it with me. For my precious mobilizer who literally kicked Satan’s
butt on my behalf last week. For my dad who spent his day off trying
to fix my hopelessly broken car. For those of you who have given me
financial support (anonymously or not). For those who have rallied
around me in prayer. For those who have loved me in big ways and
small in the past few weeks. THANK YOU!
Because of the love Christ has given me
through each of you I’m going to continue to press on towards launch
in September.
In order to launch in September I still
need to see $810 come in by Friday. God has provided this far and I
know He will continue to provide. But today I want to ask, will you
consider helping me reach this goal? If you feel led to give please
consider doing so by clicking on the tab that says support me to the
left.
Thank you for your prayers, support,
and encouragement. But most of all thank you so much for loving me
well.
