vulnerability in this blog, which is something I am not very good at.
However, despite the lies Satan is throwing at me right now, I know I
am not the only one struggling with doubts and my prayer for this blog
is that somebody may benefit from what the Lord is showing me this week.
flight to be reunited with my V Squad family for launch. Then three
days later we will be on our way to our first country, the
Philippines. I am so incredibly excited, but at the same time I would
be lying if I said I wasn’t scared. In the midst of making lists,
multiple shopping trips, and all the other things I have to do before
I leave, my mind is spinning. To be honest, this past week has been
one of the most difficult weeks I have walked through in my life.
worthless.
men rather than Jesus.
my pride get in the way of loving people well.
care about in order to push them away, because I’ve seen the power
that people’s words have had over me in the past.
into the lies the enemy is throwing at me than to seek the truth that
Jesus gives to me.
cut so deep that I don’t feel as though I’ll ever be completely
healed.
God to be using me in any way, big or small.
sometimes all of these things lead me to doubt that I am cut out for
this thing called The World Race.
wrestled with all of these thoughts, and it got to the point of
losing sleep over it. As I rolled around trying to get to bed, all
these doubts kept playing in my mind: I’m not going on the Race, God
just can’t use me in that way. There is so much junk and brokenness
in my life and this just isn’t the time for me to go. By morning, my
decision was made, I wouldn’t be going on the Race in September.
day, something told me to check my Facebook. Once I logged in, I saw
that I had a message from one of my squad leaders. This is what it
said:
Good morning Jill. I woke up with a word for you from the Lord.
telling you that you are too broken for the World Race. I am here to
tell you, Jill you aren’t too broken for the Race. The Lord is our
healer and He loves you so much. He sees your beauty and daily is
showing you how proud of you he is. Jill, I am also proud of you of
you for saying yes to the Race. I love you sweetie and will see you
soon.
in our times of need. He sees our brokenness and still asks us to be
part of His plan anyways. Not only does He heal our brokenness but He
uses it as a way to glorify Himself.
not enough, but He is. He has invited me into something so beautiful
and I choose to trust Him, even when everything within me is telling
me this is crazy. Today I choose to believe the truth that the Lord
speaks over me and walk in the freedom He has already given me. My
prayer for you, wherever you are, is that you will do the same.
leading me on, but the reality is I am still lacking quite a bit in
financial support. I still need to see about $2500 in the next two
weeks in order to be able to meet up with my squad at Launch. I am
also about $12,300 away from my final support goal of $16,285 (The
final amount needed in my account has been changed due to a new
medical insurance available to us Racers.)
able to launch in September. And I need to be have the full amount
raised by March 1st. I know these numbers seem big, but I
know that the Lord will provide. I have done a little math and know
that if just 50 people give $50 in the next two weeks, I will be at
my second goal.
would be fully supported!
Lord has in store. If you would like to give online, you can do so by
clicking on Support Me! to the left. Or you can send a check made out
to Aventures in Missions with WebbJillian in the memo line to:
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giving monthly, please contact me so I can help you set that up. As
always thank you for your prayers and support!