Our first day of ministry with our host family was a prophetic ministry night. Our host told us it was the first time he was doing this and it was going to be a growing experience for his community and congregation. The plan was to sit one on one with another person. Pray and listen to the Holy Spirit. Whatever you hear, ask them about it (testing for the purpose of learning), pray about it and ask the Holy Spirit again what to say. Our host was encouraging us that this is how you grow. This is how you learn to discern the voice of the Holy Spirit. By trying. Asking humbly and waiting to listen and to ask the person if it is true or if it applies to their life. He said that if you get nervous or don’t hear anything than to open up the bible and read something for them. Because that is also the word of God and prophecy and truth within itself as well.
So let me tell you about how crazy these two hours got.
Person 1:
When everyone arrived, our Host pulled our team to a private room in his house to worship and pray before we began. During this time of prayer, I had a vision of 3 girls kneeling down praying. Didn’t know what it meant so I didn’t think too much into it. Then when we enter into the room with everyone our host asks us to pick someone that we feel led to speak to. Instantly I see three young girls from the orphanage that we had visited the day before.
At the orphanage the day before, I was looking at one of the three girls and God told me ‘I do not know her’. This was a Christian orphanage and she was a young teen. I instantly got so sad and thought… man she has grown up in a Christian environment her whole life yet she does not know the Lord. I wanted to talk to her while I was there but didn’t get the chance.
So, when I saw her that night my eyes lit up and I chose her to speak to. Instantly I felt led to share with her parts of my testimony. I shared with her how I hid from the Lord in my pain and sin and didn’t let Him into those places. I felt the Lord tell me not to share some parts of my testimony and some to go into details with. I shared with her what the Lord told me about her and encouraged her to seek Him and let Him in. She was a beautiful girl yet I could see so much insecurity, restraint, timidity and hurt. I told her how beautiful she was and to not hold back. I talked to her for about 20-30min I think and not a single word came from her mouth. I didn’t know if I related to her in anyway but I just trusted the Lord.
After this I was super content. I thought… sweet, this was my purpose today. I’m good. Then instantly the memory from that day in China I wrote about popped into my head. When I thought the day was over after me and Austin prayed for the rehabilitation center but a lot more crazy was ahead. I think that was the Lord preparing me lol.
Person 2:
Afterwards I went into the main area where people were gathered and waiting for a one on one. I walked into a room of people sharing testimonies and prayer requests. A few minutes later two men walk into the room and I hear the Lord tell me, ask if he has pain and pray. In my head I was like eehhhhhhhhh ohhhhhkayyyyyyy. So, when there was a break in the conversation and I asked the first man that walked in if he had pain and he say’s no. I was like, ah… ok bet then, that’s awkward lol. Then a few minutes later God tells me, the other man. Then that “other man” (the one who walked into the room second), starts talking about how he has pain in his legs. I legit laugh and confess to the whole room that the Lord told me but I got the wrong man and that I’m still learning and growing in all this. Then I ask him to explain his pain to me and ask him if we can pray. I tell the whole room to pray with me. As soon as I touch the man’s leg’s I feel a massive rush in my spirit like it jumped. Ive never felt anything like it. As everyone starts to pray it feels like there’s a wind flowing through the room. Idk how to explain it but it was really intense. After, the man says that when he came in, he had intense nerve pain from his knees down and after prayer it was completely gone!
Person 3:
Our Host came back in and asked us to pick another person. A woman had been on my mind for the past 10 min so I ended up choosing her. She ended up being a pastor’s wife for one of the church bodies that was there. When we sat down, I heard nothing. So I asked her if I could just pray. Then right after the prayer I got shame and works. I first felt led to break down Matthew 17:1-9.
Our first day with our host we went to a bible study at her church and I felt led to share from this passage. But I felt like I didn’t do a great job. And the passage and message kept repeating in my head for 2 days and I felt like I was supposed to speak on it again. I just kept low key rehearsing it in my head but I didn’t know what for lol. So I knew the preparation was for her.
I begin to break it down. Jesus takes Peter, James and John on the mountain. Jesus transfigures before them and Moses and Elijah appear and begin speaking with Jesus. In Peters amazement he starts asking Jesus if he can build a tabernacle to honor him there to remember this moment and spot. Then God the Father comes and says to Peter “This is my beloved son with whom I am well pleased, listen to Him”, then when peter opens his eyes the transfiguration is complete and Moses and Elijah are gone. I explained to her that when Jesus was baptized, God the Father also spoke and said, “This is my beloved Son, with whom I am well pleased”. How this was before His ministry, before any miracle or healing and most importantly before the cross. And He was well pleased with Jesus. I told her this is how God the Father sees us now. Like Jesus. So He is well pleased with us before anything we can do for Him if we are His children. That we should not be like Peter on the mountain trying to please the Father with works or actions. But to just listen to him and to just rest in His presence and glory. Or we will miss something. Jesus came to break all religion and works and that’s because the cross was enough. So, I reminded her to rest from trying to please God and just seek him. She instantly started crying and began opening up with me about how she has been trying to start many ministries for the Lord because she wants to do His work but how none of them are working out. How she gets stressed because she feels like she isn’t doing enough. Not enough to please Him. We continued talking more and she vented to me so much about her church pains and the struggles and pressures of leading a congregation and being the Pastors wife. We prayed and talked a lot and it was such a beautiful moment. We lost track of time for sure.
As you can see this day was Lit. To just practice and grow in hearing His voice is amazing. Because we have the gift of the cross, we have the Holy Spirit. Our helper and still quiet voice. God in us. Our connection to God the Father. The cross payed for our sin so He sees us as forgiven and children. No longer does the Lord need to come and speak to us in loud and scary ways like He did in the old testament. I believe now that prophecy lies within the Holy Spirit. A gift all children of God have and can grow in. And something that we should all ask to grow in like Paul tells us in Corinthians. It’s a way He can use all of us. Us our vocal cords as He pleases our host said.
That, “I feel led” or that gut feeling or a memory popping up in your head, or knowing something before it happens, or seeing through into someone’s gift’s or sins before its exposed are all the Holy Spirit. To lead us into His will or intercession and prayer.
And again, this is just one day. God has shown me so much in this area and there’s so much more I want to say on this. I no longer choose to keep Him in a box and not allow myself to grow closer with Him and receive the full gift of the cross. I know he can use me more the further I walk in this. For I will do what my Father tells me. And I will do what I see my Father doing.
