I awoke at five in the morning,
unnatural for the likes of me. I, Jess Waite, hardly ever witness the world before 7:30 am. Unless it is two in the morning and I’m just getting into bed.
I awoke at five and sat in the rickety rocking chair, the one that makes me nervous it will flip backwards —but I like to live life on the edge, ya know?
I watched the sky begin to brighten
The dark clouds become less so.
I watched as the world existed
In this eerie in-between light
My eyes are puffy
Just big puffs all the time now
At the beginning of this month, it was because I was sick
And now
It’s just because I am sad all the time.
A pretty sort of sadness
Because it’s mixed with anticipation excitement longing
memories
uncontainable joy in the form of dance parties and intertwined limbs
And shifting winds, and the inevitable knowing that goodbyes are beginning
But shoot…
I have been blessed… blessed enough to feel so deeply when the scene is changing
To see the imprint of the one before
And to miss it
Before it is gone
I am thankful
For the sunrise,
The wildflowers
The mountains in the distance
Blue sky above me
The green earth beneath
I am thankful
For all that is behind me
And all that goes before
I am thankful
for the souls
that I have seen
And
that travel with me
I am thankful
for the privilege
of another beautiful life
Weaving in and out of mine
Like fireflies in the dark,
light passing me by,
Flickering in and out of my night
And I am thankful
For the blessing of life
