Also I am still accepting donations for my mission trip to Spain. You can donate through PayPal.com using my email [email protected] or buy a shirt at bonfire.com by typing in Jessie’s El Camino. Thanks friends and family for reading!
These past two months God has been wrecking me. That is an understatement. My body feels like it got hit by a truck. God has been cutting my flesh open and scrapping all the bad out of my body. I’ve never experienced this kind of thing before, but I prayed for it. I prayed for God to kill my flesh. I’ve started realizing that when I pray for things God answers me.
Before the race I prayed for God to take me to the dark places….He has done that. Since month one I’ve experienced spiritual warfare. Last month in Nicaragua I worked at a halfway home/orphanage, and it was the darkest I’ve ever experienced.
When I first got to my ministry in Nicaragua I felt a heavy darkness in our rooms. I was still trying to ignore the fact that God has gifted me with discernment of the spirits. I would wake up between 2-3 and see a dark figure outside my room and think surely that’s not a evil spirit. I would go to bed and have terrible fleshly thoughts and ignore the fact that it was spiritual warfare. I found out that about 30 years ago a man got arrested because he was raping girls in the orphanage and making drugs. The place was also a army base in the 70s where many people said unimaginable horrible things happened to boys there.
Then my other squad mates started saying things I had already been feeling. I knew then that there was darkness in our ministry place. A squad mate prayed over our rooms and told us that the room I was in was the darkest.
That night I began praying for God to reveal to me what was going on. He told me someone was sexually touching the little girls at the half way home. I immediately thought no that can’t be true. But I woke up my team and we prayed over the house the girls slept in. I could feel the evil over their door.
I asked God to keep me awake all night if it was true….well He did. He told me I would have 3 sleepless nights. That night I couldn’t sleep and I could feel something staring at me. God told me to get up and pray for our house because there were spirits attacking. It was about 3 in the morning and I was scared. I walked around our house, prayed over the rooms. I could feel it so strongly that I began weeping. God has me weep when things like this happen. I couldn’t sleep most of the night so I prayed for peace and rebuking the spirits.
The next day I told my team and I said I was going to tell my host about someone touching the girls. and one of the guys told me that this night would be the hardest. He was right. I had never felt so scared in my life. I could feel something staring at me as if it wanted to kill me. I said out loud Psalms 23 and Isaiah 61, and I could the presence getting stronger as I read Gods word out loud. I could barely sleep the whole night.
The guys of my team felt led to pray for our house during the night and they even felt scared. They cried because they could feel how strong it is. The next night we had a prayer burn, which is when we stayed up all night and prayed for our ministry home.
That night my squad mates and I fought. We rebuked the spirits in that place. There was a little girl who lived at the half way home and she started looking at me weirdly. She fell and I went to see if she was ok, but she got up. She started breathing heavily and holding her stomach. I tried to pick her up but she began screaming as soon as I touched her.
I got my team mate Celenne because she can speak Spanish and the little girl didn’t know English. Girls came up to us as we were trying to talk to this little girl and they told us sometimes her eyes turn white and her stomach hurts. God told me it was a spirit.
We told her to say she is a child of God, but she wouldn’t say it. We kept trying until she did. I began weeping because I didn’t want this evil on her. She started glaring at me and asking why I was crying. Celenne told her it is because I love her, and then she said it. She said she was a child of God! The her head started hurting. Celenne told her to say she is free in Christ. The little girl said a voice in her head said she isn’t free. We both prayed and prayed for her until she could say it. Then after she said it she couldn’t talk. She could only mumble. It took so long for her to finally say she is free in Christ.
It was like nothing I had ever seen before, but there was an evil spirt on her. We prayed through out the whole night for our ministry place. God revealed to someone that a witch was putting curses over the ministry. We began rebuking her.
As the night went on I could feel Gods light coming over the place. God took back our ministry place. We prayed and God was faithful. The darkness left after that night. There was peace.
I had never experienced anything like that before, but it is real. Spiritual warfare is very real and it is all over the world.
Once God conquered that battle I knew I ha to tell the host about what God revealed to me. Celenne and I talked with our host about a certain girl touching the girls as God revealed to us, and she said the girl had been touched by her sister when she was younger.
I had to leave ministry to see my mom but Celenne got to talk to the girl. She wasn’t the one touching girls BUT she had been suffering from depression and hating herself and Celenne got to pray for healing for her. Celenne said she seemed so much freer after the healing. We also found out that girls were touching each other. They called it games, but they were touching each other inappropriately. Now our host gets to pray for them and take precautions to stop the touching.
When God first revealed that to me I was scared and denied it just as I had denied seeing the spirits but God proved both of those to be true to me. This trip has been difficult in so many ways, but my faith has grown exponentially. I pray as you read this yours does too. Spiritual warfare is real, but God has given authority over it all through Him.
Also I am still accepting donations for my mission trip to Spain. You can donate through PayPal.com using my email [email protected] or buy a shirt at bonfire.com by typing in Jessie’s El Camino. Thanks friends and family for reading!
