I’m sure after reading the first part of my blog you’re wondering what my title means. Well, let me tell you.
While I did experience some voodoo and evil spirits there was something I came across in Haiti that’s much worse. Something that I have found all over the world.
On the race I have learned that Satan loves to cover “little sins” with “big sins”. He likes to make people think just because they don’t drink, or have sex out of marriage, or do drugs, or any other sin that the world focuses on, that we are good. We are a good Christian because we don’t do any of these things. We are wrong!
I went into Haiti praying about voodoo, when the most scary thing I saw was not voodoo. The most scary thing I saw was at a school.
In the house we lived in I got really close to a high school girl and she invited me to the Haiti Independence Day party at her school. I immediately said yes, because how cool would it be to see traditional Haitian dances and music. I could have never guessed what I would see.
As we walked to the school just her and I; I could see many people waiting to get in the school and hip hop music was playing loudly. I felt like I was about to go into a club. I even needed a ticket to get inside. As soon as we got in the school I got a weird feeling. But some students were doing a traditional dance, and teachers were there so pushed the feeling aside.
When the students stopped their dance; loud music roared through out the school and I noticed something. There were older men at this party who weren’t teachers, and alcohol was being sold. Young children maybe 8 years old were drinking beer with their teachers right next to them.
A little while later another dance was to be preformed by a little girl who was maybe 10 or 11. She had an extremely short skirt and a shirt that showed her stomach. Everyone gathered around the stage to watch her. The music started and she began dancing provocatively. I’ve never seen anything like this. This little girl was dancing with all these old men around, and people began to throw money at her. I wanted to go up and stop this horrible thing, but I couldn’t.
When she stopped her mother came out and helped her pick up the money. I wanted to leave the party, but my friend didn’t want to and I couldn’t walk home by myself because it’s too dangerous in Haiti. I must have been there for about for hours. It was four hours provocative dancing from multiply students young and older and everyone drinking.
At one point a little boy of maybe 12 came up to me and asked me to take him home. He had scars all over his face. I could tell he was beaten. I felt sick to my stomach. The whole time I wanted to cry and just prayed for this party to end. It was the first time I’d felt like the only light in a sea of darkness.
When we left my friend could tell I was not feeling good, and I got to share why I didn’t like it. I got to share my testimony with her which was awesome! But I began to wonder why God had shown me this terrible thing.
I’ve found that we have “little sins” engraved in us that lead us to do the “big sins.” And the “big sins” cover up the “little sins.” We have programmed our minds to assume voodoo is the worst thing of Haiti, but there is so much more. These kinds of parties happen in every school to raise money for funding. THESE ARE FUND RAISERS. That’s so crazy and heart breaking. Even more heart breaking is that most missionaries go into Haiti fighting voodoo while this is going on behind the scenes of a public school.
As we walked back home I began remembering all the “big sins” I use to do. I couldn’t believe I use to do those things. That I looked like those girls dancing for guys attention. I began wondering why I even did those things.
We focus on the well known sin when there is something growing inside that we may not even know. Going into this trip I thought I was ok, because I don’t do the big sins. Thankfully, God showed me through this event what “big sins” had been covering my “little sins”. It was my pride and selfishness that led me to drinking, it was insecurities that led me to guys arms instead of His.
God showed me that until I learn to overcome the pride, selfishness, insecurities, and many other sins I would never walk in His freedom. See on this trip I haven’t had the opportunity to let my pride lead me to my “big sins” instead they led me to gossip and selfish thinking and other things I think Christians over look.
This is why Satan loves to make us focus on “big sins” because when we think those are the only problem then when they are gone we must be perfect. Right? Wrong! Those “little sins” lead us to do so many bad things that when you stop doing one sin your “little sin” will just take you down another road. You think you conquer it, but really you haven’t found the root yet. Satan loves to hide the real sin of why we do things.
So what is your voodoo hiding the darkness within? What sins do you do that are influenced by something deeper? Ask yourself why you are greedy, or why do you gossip, or why do you run into someone’s arms instead of God’s? Is it because you are prideful? Are you insecure? Until you recognize those things then you will keep falling. Look for the root and give it to Jesus. Let Him take it from you so you can walk in His freedom.
In March, I signed up to do a mission trip to Spain, I did not have wifi so fund raising was difficult. Thankfully, I was able to go on a later mission trip. In Spetmeber, I will be going to the Philippines to work with women stuck in sex trafficking. It is with an organization called Wipe Every Tear. I will be using PayPal.com to raise funds. If you feel led to give use my email [email protected] on PayPal.com to donate. Thanks for reading:)
