Training camp recked my world,
in the best way possible!
It was a blur of tears, joy, screams, hugs, and wonder. By the end of it I was emotionally, physically, and spiritually drained. It was absolutely wonderful and powerful.
I am still trying to process everything that happened & trying to figure out how I physically ran with a 40 lbs pack on, up and down Georgia hills.
But in 10 short days I got to talk to God, witness miracles, prophesize, evangelize, and worship like I never have before. I got to forgive, remove shame that has been built up, remove walls that have been there for years, and accept myself for the unique creation that I am. & the most amazing part is I got to meet 32 individuals that will change this world someday!
So I wanted to share with you some of the things that I learned.
Well I went in feeling inadequate, lonely, and shame filled.
& I left with a new life, transformed by the love of God.
It wasn’t an easy process, it was painful and the Lord brought things up that I would rather keep hidden down deep inside my heart. He showed me the lies and the shame I was holding on to and asked me to hand them over to him. So, one by one I handed them over feeling lighter with each one & the last thing I had to hand over was my trust, which was extremely hard for me. I hold my trust in a steel, locked box way down deep in my heart so no one can hurt me. But God showed me that He IS trustworthy and is ALWAYS good, even when I don’t see it. He taught me to be vulnerable and open, and I broke and opened up like I never have before. I let go of the “strong” side of me and let myself be weak in His presence. I cried more in these past 10 days than I can remember (& if you knew me you know I don’t cry very often).
But its okay to be vulnerable, to cry, to ask for help, to be weak because God equips the unequipped. He strengthens the weak, He heals the wounds that have been hurting us for years. He speaks to us. He LOVES us & I am learning what that love looks like.
You just need to let him in and ask him to show you.
“There’s no shame in looking like a fool, when I give you what I can’t keep and take a hold of you!”
(That was a quote from a worship song we sang this week that hit home!)
Throughout the 10 days, I also learned about God’s true judgement. At one of the sessions we were practicing listening prayer and just sitting in the Lord’s presence to see what he was telling us & he put the verse John 8:16 in my head. I had no clue what it said, so I looked it up and it read:
“And yet if I do judge, My judgement is true; for I am not alone, but I am with the Father who sent me.” John 8:16
Woah! We were just talking about His judgement and how he has the ONLY true judgement about us. No one else has the power to judge, we don’t even have the power or authority to judge ourselves! God is the only one who can judge and His judgment about me is true!
& He says I am forgiven, loved, enough, full, holy, clean, captivating, and I am His child. That’s amazing!
It was also amazing to be around such a strong community of believers and live a life that is truly centered around God. It transforms you, it changes the way you do everything. You love a little deeper, listen a little harder, hug a little tighter, & pray a litter stronger. Each and every person on my team inspires me to be a better version of myself and shows me a different part of God that I have never seen before.
“For as we have many members in one body, but all the members do not have the same function.” Romans 12:4
So the answer is YES, you can change in just 10 days with God in charge!
Because God loves you just the way you are, but loves you too much to KEEP you the way you are!
So training camp has left me with my soul is on fire like it has never been before & I am more in love with our Lord then I thought possible.
If anyone would like to learn more about my experience at training camp, please feel free to reach out to me because I would love to tell you more!
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“He who finds his life will lose it, and he who loses his life for My sake will find it.”
Matthew 10:39
