Ok,so in my last blog, I shared about my struggle with faith…and emphasized that faith is sometimes more about the relationship with God, than where God leads us (the destination). Another aspect of faith I have been wrestling with…
Is my faith enough?
One of my squad mates shared this with me during the past week…
Let us then approach God's throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need. Hebrews 4:16
Sometimes I don't feel like I am approaching the throne of grace with confidence…sometimes I feel like I enter His throne room, tiptoeing timidly…slowly and hesitantly moving forward…hoping and yet fearing that He'll hear my little footsteps…what if He won't accept the amount of faith I have to offer?
And what if I do have faith…and yet He chooses to answer differently than I have prayed and asked…does that mean my faith was not enough??
I don't have the answers to these questions..but I try to hold on to verses and stories from the Bible…
…like the story found in Mark 9:14-29:
The man was desperate for his son…his boy… to be healed. His son was bound in the grasps of evil…sometimes he was mute. sometimes he foamed at the mouth…sometimes he was thrown into water and fire…I wonder what the father's heart felt…watching his son writhing on the ground…
"If you can do anything [Jesus], have compassion on us and help us!"
Jesus reply: [If I can?!?] "All things are possible for one who believes."
And the father cried out, "I believe. Help my unbelief!"
I find myself relating to this story…{I believe, Jesus! But help me believe more. so much more!}
Mattew 17:20b
"For truly I say to you, if you have faith like a grain of a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move, and nothing will be impossible for you."
I am still very much in this faith journey–probably always will be…but I believe God knows that we struggle, yet He accepts our "seeds of faith." He plants them and grows them, in His timing and in His way. He longs for us to know and trust Him more, to lift the gaze of our souls to Him, the saving God. He is, after all the Author and Finisher of our faith , and He knows better than anyone that we are a work in progress! (Hebrews 12:2)
What "seed of faith" are you holding in your hand today?
And what will you choose to do with it?
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$$ Update $$
Just wanted to give you an update on finances. This past Sunday, God worked in mighty ways and provided more than enough money to cover my first deadline!!! ALL GLORY AND PRAISE TO GOD!!!
I am so thankful and humbled for people's support, and I don't mean only in money. Prayers, encouraging verses, thoughts, donations, prayerful questions and insights…all have been a blessing. Again, to God be the glory!
I hate to praise God for His provisions in one breath and then list upcoming financial needs in the next breath. There are still various needs, but I will not give specifics at this time. I ask that you would continue to support me in prayer and if God leads you to give, please contact me personally or click the Support Me link on the left side of my page. Thanks again…so much!
(quote by A.W. Tozer)
