
Nervousness, anxiety, anticipation, fear, and confusion are just some thoughts coming to and at the start of training camp. Yet, brokenness, openness, and vulnerability before the Lord and brothers has brought forth much healing.
Growth. Love. Trust. Truth. Training camp has been everything I hoped for, and everything I dreaded. A week has felt like a month, the days long, the outdoors kind of rough, but the experience has forever changed me. Who I leave here as is better than the person I came here to be. I’ve gotten raw, and I’ve gotten real…I am growing into the woman God has called me to be.
John 10:10b. That verse keeps going through my head as I think through this week. Jesus wants us to have abundant life and this week was an introduction to that vision for our lives. I tried to drop all expectations coming into camp. I wanted to be able to experience everything fully and not be disappointed or anxious throughout this week. The week turned out to be a week full of inner healing for things that I have known that needed to be addressed for years. It was a week of meeting new friends that turned into family faster than I could have ever imagined. It was a week that was the hardest yet most life changing week ever. God worked in amazing ways and transformed and redeemed his people.
Training Camp has been a rollercoaster of emotions. Days of happiness, joy, laughter to days of feeling pure hopelessness, frustration, brokenness all mixed with tears of both gladness and pain. To any future Racers I recommend coming to training camp expecting the unexpected; expect brokenness and be open to experiencing things you have never experienced before or may have even though were not possible. As hard as it has been I have allowed God to break the walls I had put up; to teach me new things I once though not possible, to feel the Holy Spirit and hear God’s voice in ways I never thought I would. To any future Racer I sum up camp in theses 6 words “Craziest Hardest most amazing experience ever!”
Training Camp has been like a Hammer. Most of the time a hammer can pound and hurt but this hammer has been used to build, form and accomplish hard tasks that we can’t do by ourselves.