I have to be honest, I never really understood that whole … “I was praying last night and the Lord told me… (insert whatever).� I mean it all sounded so super spiritual and hokey … like really … the Lord actually told you that … it just didn’t make sense to me.
I mean I know He’s the God of the universe and all, but really why would He be concerned with telling you … or me, for that matter … something so specific? It’s easier to trust the generalizations He speaks to us through His Word … It’s much harder to trust that He is also speaking clearly to us in the specifics.
But in Psalms 139:1-4, it reminds me,
Lord, you have examined me and know all about me. You know when I sit down and when I get up. You know my thoughts before I think them. You know where I go and where I lie down. You know thoroughly everything I do. Lord, even before I say a word, you already know it.
So if the Lord knows everything about me … all my thoughts, all my actions, all my words, all my desires … why wouldn’t He speak to me about the specifics? He knows them, and what better way to show us that He knows us than to speak to us in the little things?
I guess I should now explain where I am going with this newest revelation …
Shhhh. Don’t tell AIM but I’m about to use the “R� word … Relationship.
NO DATING. It’s policy. No time for that distraction while we’re on the field. We have enough to focus our attention on without trying to entertain the idea of a relationship. But what happens when you’re praying one night and the Lord says,
“I need to talk to you about your future; your future with relationships. “
Okay, awkward timing, but I’m all ears, Lord.
“Your next kiss will be on your wedding night.�
Hold on. Rewind that thought. Do you know how crazy and old fashioned that sounds? I can’t even date for at least another 7 months, and you’re already telling me about my wedding night?
“Trust me, I have a plan. A plan to prosper you, not to harm you. A plan to give you a hope and a future.�
Let’s try this again … Are you hearing me? He’s seriously going to think I’m crazy and old fashioned and people who think you’re crazy don’t marry you …
“I designed relationships; don’t you think I know what I’m talking about?�
Okay, okay, but why are you telling me this now? Relationships aren’t even on my radar in this season of my life.
“I want you to know your worth. I want you to know that you will be respected enough that your future husband will wait for you, even in something as simple as a kiss. He will wait for you. You are loved. You are my precious daughter. You are clothed in righteousness. You are special to me, and you will be special to him. I want you to live in the truth that you have so much to offer and that you are a new creation; the past does not define you anymore and you will be worth the wait. If you live this season of your life in that identity that I have called you to then you will continue living your life in that identity, and your future husband will be blessed because you will be the woman I have called you to be, walking in truth; rejoicing in freedom.�
So there it was … probably not the first time God specifically spoke to me … but the first time that I chose to listen and believe that He actually does speak about the specifics. I guess it’s time to quit hiding in my comfort zone of “Christianity that makes sense,� and time to be bold and live the way I’ve been called to live even when it sounds as crazy as waiting until my wedding for a kiss.
