If I had to give the headache I experienced the past two days a number on a scale of 1 to 10 it would be awarded a 20. It was one of those real, real bad headaches you know those ones right behind your eyeballs? Yeah, daggers, piercing – Not my idea of a pleasant 48 hours. I hate headaches, partly due to the pain but mostly due to the inconvenience. Being sick, in any capacity, is inconvenient. If you try and do too much, the headache gets worse, inconvenient or if you try and rest, nothing gets done, inconvenient (especially when I have this to do list as long as my arm, and that might be an understatement). I don’t deal well with inconvenient. Not one bit.
Therefore, I had a plan of attack that first began with going to the handy dandy CVS to get my new best friend, “Rapid Release Tylenol,� The medicine for those who do not yet have the lovely Fruit of the Spirit known as: Patience. I’m not really sure if it works any faster than regular Tylenol, but they always say, mind over matter. Therefore, if I think it works faster …then it will work faster, maybe. Whatever. Regardless, when I got to the CVS I realized that maybe my headache was due in part to caffeine withdrawals, I spent a whole weekend drinking Coke and then switched to drinking no caffeine at the beginning of the week, so my solution to that was maybe I should get a Coke to take with my medicine maybe the two together will make this headache go away. I kept trying to think of what else I could do to make my ding dang dumb headache go away and I knew that it had to be something in my control.
So where am I going with all this? Well the fact of the matter is how often do we try to find a quick man made fix to the pain in our life? Let me make a claim here, I am not trying to say you shouldn’t take medicine and that medicine doesn’t have its place in treating the symptoms. I am a proponent for taking medication, do not mistake me there. Anyways, that’s where I have found myself these past two days trying to drown my headache in Coca Cola and Rapid Release Tylenol. Oh and guess what? For a little while the headache goes down to just a dull pain or leaves completely, anything is better than the number 20 headache I had been experiencing. Praise Tylenol! Praise Coke! Hello, there is something very wrong with this picture! Why do we sometimes give credit where credit is NOT due? Tylenol and Coke would not fix a thing if God was not responsible for healing me of my headache. Praise God!
Well the man made fixes, whatever they may be, are not the solution. Sometimes the quick fix becomes the problem – dependence is a problem. Dependence on anything but God is a problem. I am so guilty of depending on too much stuff in this world, including myself. How often do we decide that we don’t need help, we can do it by ourselves? I like to think that I am strong enough to handle anything on my own, but I am not. If I could handle anything on my own, why would I need God? I can’t keep holding onto this prideful mindset that I am this “independent woman,â€� who doesn’t need anyone. I can’t. I need God, and I need community. I need to put God back where He belongs as the decision maker in my life not just the consultant. Who am I to think that I can consult God? I need not make my own plans, and ask God to come alongside. I need to ask God what His plans are and go along with His calling for my life.
Right now, The World Race is His plan for my life and I am along for the ride. Unfortunately, I have been trying to take back the control of this trip, consulting God after I have a plan. But no matter what I do to prepare for this trip – no matter how much Coke I drink or Rapid Release Tylenol I take (to bring it back to my metaphor) nothing is going to help without God’s help. He is in control of the finances; He is in control of stirring the hearts of those in my life who will prayerfully and financially support me. Ultimately, He is the one who will be footing the bill for this trip; He already has a plan for who He has called to give. He will use many of you to provide for me to go on this trip, and so I ask you to ask God is He calling you to support me on this trip – prayerfully or financially? He knows who He is calling to help and He will further His Kingdom without Coke and Rapid Release Tylenol, I just need to have some good old fashioned faith.
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