Where do I go from here? What happens when what is next becomes a personal choice and not a game of follow your leaders to the next country?
I’ve been bitten, again. Bitten by the missions bug. The “I know there has to be more for my life, and I am all in to pursue the calling that God has placed on my life� track. It’s a messy course, it’s a taxing course. It’s a give up what control I think I have still course. It’s a course that requires continued dependence on others. But it’s my course.
My course isn’t predictable.
My course requires God to show up in a big way and help me to raise even more money. My course requires me to step away from what others would want for me for another 10 months. My course is going to be stateside, but I’m continuing to pursue the calling.
As much as I try and talk myself out of another commitment, another support raising gig, another year of not starting the typical work, work, work … plan. I can’t stop thinking about it. I can’t stop feeling called. I can’t stop knowing that God is calling me to continue following Him.
Blind Faith.
Have you ever seen something that has stirred you so much that you just know that you have to move? You can’t just sit idly by … well, that’s how I felt when I watched The World Race promo video 1.5 years ago … and then now, I was at a youth service Saturday and they showed this Chris Tomlin video from Passion and it sparked it again. “How Great is Our God?�
Our God is so GREAT … that I am choosing to trust Him to carry me through this next season of my life, and well … though nothing is official … my heart is pining for what’s next. Is it scary? Yes. I don’t know what life will look like; I don’t know how I will fund it. I don’t know how I will get there. I don’t know anything.
Blind Faith.
Check the video out that is my current life song:
