So here I am, almost 24 years old, and living with my parents.
I moved home (St. Louis area) last December so I could fundaise through July to leave on The World Race. Somewhere in the midst of the move and the chaos of connecting with old friends, I got distracted. I was highly uncomfortable here in Illinois and I missed Minnesota. I didn't have any christian friends…in fact, the only "friends" I had were those from my past…welcoming "back" with open arms. I tried to remain strong…I really did but of course, when you are surrounded completely by darkness and you have no believers around you to lean on, it gets difficult. Well, I made some choices and basically decided that I'm not going on the race. <Jonah>
Then, in June, I realize that I'm not getting away from this call. I'm never going to be satisfied until I am doing what I was created to do! So…why had I been running?
So here we go again. I jump on this World Race bandwagon. I decided to re-apply and not let anything stop me. I didn't have a clear timeline…I just knew that I knew that I was supposed to follow through with this trip. So I apply, get accepted and boom! Here I am! Planning to leave in January! No red lights and no green lights, just moving through life at a steady consistent pace, resolved to do all God has called me to do. But now, I'm 2 days past the deadline and I'm resting at about $1800 under the first deadline. So…with that being said, I guess I'm asking for prayer. Prayer that the Lord continues to lead my steps. I know there is a purpose in me being here at home, with my family but I never planned on spending 8 months here…none the less a year…and none the less 18 months!
I guess I'm feeling cramped. However, I know God is using this time to purge me. He is also restoring things. He is getting me plugged in. I was all over the place in MN. I was north, south, east and west, wasn't really connected (in the way I needed to be) to any one body of believers, or any of that. Now, I'm plugged in to a home church, have believers around me encouraging me in my daily walk with Christ and I have friends that God is allowing me to show His love to. I know it's all going to work out…it is just the process of freedom. It's learning to abide in Him and not in the surroundings around me. Ya know…just…life as a believer. Day by day, moment by moment… 🙂
