Regardless of whether the control was surrendered or lost, I know one thing: I no longer have it. Well…you'll understand what I mean shortly.
See, today (well Tuesday), I sent out my support letters. Prior to that, I had a choice. I could tell individuals about my trip and not really ask for support but today was a gutsy step for me. I am asking people for money. I HATE that with a passion…but I guess this is the first step to overcoming that. A part of it is pride, a part of it is independence but a major part…control. Now the word is out. There is no turning back now.
I don't know why it phased me so much…dropping those letters in the box seemed like a daunting task. So, I took them inside and handed them over instead. Seriously! It was as if I was giving up my will and submitting to God.
If mailing the letters was hard…what is going to happen with my follow-up calls? Oh geeze!
So, why am I sharing this? I'm asking you to pray. Join with me in prayer and ask God to move the hearts of those He desires. Pray that my vision is caught. I wish I would've shared more of my vision but pray pray pray that people grab it and want to send me to fullfill my God-given calling.
At this point, I have $150 in my account. By September 25, I have to have $3,500 in my account! That seems impossible to me but I am reminded of the verse that God led me to memorize years ago…
Matthew 19:26, "But Jesus looked at them and said to them, “With men this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”
