Have you ever wondered why things seem difficult and you aren't moving forward?
Have you ever wondered why it seems like you have to push to make things happen?
Well…since I've decided to go on this trip, I've felt that way.
As I was sitting here reseaching some different things related to my trip, I was wondering what was next. I haven't raised hardly anything and in all honesty, this week, I've been battling discouragement. However, the Lord spoke. See, I was thinking to myself in regards to setting up a booth outside Walmart, "I'm to grab opportunities by the neck and wring out every last blessing from them. After all, how can you be filled up if you aren't empty?" SAY WHAT?
In that moment as that thought went through my mind, I couldn't help but realize it was straight from the Lord. He has been dealing with me this week about surrender. As much as this trip excites me, it also gets my nerves racked. I can't imagine sleeping where there are bugs, in a foreign country with foreign people, with no cell phone to talk to my friends and yadda yadda yadda. At either rate, the Lord has been dealing with me. This is not my trip…it is His. He has called me and He is going to have to provide. However, with that being said, how in the world is He going to fill me up if I am already full? I've held on to my pride (not wanting to ask for help, thinking I can do it all by myself), doubt, bitterness, and fear. They've all been just hanging out.
It's time to get aggressive. Matthew 11:11-12 (note the 11:11 🙂 ), "Assuredly, I say to you, among those born of women there has not risen one greater than John the Baptist; but he who is least in the kingdom of heaven is greater than he. And from the days of John the Baptist until now, the kingdom of heaven suffers violence, and the violent take it by force." It's time to get aggressive.
Aggressive:
- Ready or likely to attack or confront; characterized by or resulting from aggression.
- Pursuing one's aims and interests forcefully, sometimes unduly so: "an aggressive businessman".
I have emptied myself before the throne. I've laid it all down. I have asked God to call me out when I try and pick those things up again because if I am full of the junk in this world, then I cannot receive fully from Him.
I'm taking on the things of the enemy by force. No longer will I sit by and let it wreak havok in my life. Today, it's done. I'm saying no more. Blessings, come. Father, speak to those who are called to invest into Kingdom Advancement. Speak to those who are called to send rather than to go. Father, draw them in! Guide me with each step I take. Open doors where the enemy has attempted to shut them. Father come.
Today is a new day, and I'm moving forward. Onward in to the heart of the King.
