As the months pass by me quickly I have felt as though I am not doing enough. If I would pray more than more would happen. If I would give more time then I would see changes. Truth be told I have been stretched pretty thin since January when I got the acceptance call for the World Race.
I just graduated with my Associates Degree in Early Childhood Education and that is what has taken most of my time for the past five months. I’m REALLY, REALLY, REALLY PROUD of my efforts but I found myself feeling really guilty when I put more effort into school work than I did reading God’s word or praying the past few months. (for those of you going to college and working full time, you know the struggle is real!!!)
So now what? I have graduated!!! But I have still felt this calling, more like a wooing and longing in my heart. Calling me to spend more time studying the word and praying. Truthfully that’s how we grow, right? I can feel the small changes taken place in my heart that lead my to the Father!! He has such a strong yet gentle love that sweeps me up in His arms every time. And that is the place my heart has been longing for. That quiet time when I need to just be with my Father and soak up all the love He has for me.
11 months is a long time to be away from home and my family. But I can feel God wooing me. Saying, “Come, trust me.” And to be completely honest I am taking his hand as though I were a child following my Father to where he leads me. I’m closing my eyes and believing that You won’t take me where you don’t go. Over the past few week I have felt such a deep love stirring in my heart. A love for the Father, for His plans, and for my life!!!
Our Father has plans for us! He wants to give us a life better than we ever imagined. He knows our hearts. He knows my heart. He knew before I knew that I would have a desire to see other nations. That my heart would be called to missions. So now He has called me on a mission that requires complete dependence on Him! And as he woos me I can only follow His unfailing love.
