“Jess, come here.”
I heard these words not really knowing where I was being called to or why.
I got up and walked outside our squad home. As I followed my teammate’s voice I walked out of the double red metal doors and turned to see her giving a peanut butter sandwich and a cup of water to a woman who was sitting on the stone just a few feet away.
I went over and learned her name was *Faith. She needed something to eat because her sugar was deathly low which was noted by the way her body was shaking. She had walked a long way to reach Nsoko and she spent the night under the umbrella tree outside the safety of our fence.
We sat with her and began praying over her. Then we simply chatted and sat together. The more we talked the more she began to open up about her life.
We discovered that she had a 10 year old daughter. She also shared how she’s always struggled with the fact people tell her she’s not good enough. That she’s nothing and not worthy of being loved.
I shared with her my struggle of worth and how the Lord restored my heart with his redeeming love showing me I am worthy.
I could just feel her spirit receiving the words the Lord was speaking through me. Abba began to stir something deep in her heart.
At that moment I felt a shift in the atmosphere allowing her to open up about a deep burden she’d been carrying for far too long.
She began to share about the suicidal thoughts she had been keeping locked away. She shared about how many times she’s thought about taking her daughter’s life and then her own.
My spirit immediately felt the burden she’d been carrying and how the enemy was using this to keep her down; I saw attacks coming from every side. I saw the pain she had been carrying around and in the same moment I also saw the release this confession gave her. I saw light being shed on the darkness the enemy wanted to cultivate deeper.
I saw a daughter of the risen King. The enemy said she was broken, tormented, ashamed, and alone, but God said differently and He called me to speak it to her. I shared with her how God saw her as whole, peaceful, cleansed, chosen, and loved.
And then we prayed.
I felt chains being broken. I felt restoration of her heart and overflowing peace from Abba.
As we prayed the atmosphere continued to shift and God did what He does best…..restore.
It was our last day in Swaziland and God arranged for a divine appointment that morning.
If *Faith was the only reason I came on this race then that’s enough.
*name changed
