When I turned 28, I had a meltdown.
I cried to my best friend, complaining about all the things I didn’t have and vented about where I thought I should be at this point in my life.
According to my plans, I should have been married and working on having a baby. I should have owned my own home and had a job making a lot of money … all before the age of 30.
Instead, I had none of those things and my lack of the “American Dream” was ever present in my mind.
Things started to look up though when I turned 29. I didn’t have everything on my “list” but at least I was now engaged to be married and was sure that the rest would soon follow – that is until I was blindsided by some devastating news that ended my engagement.
My American dream was now a nightmare and if the saying, “We plan, God laughs,” is true then God was rolling around on heaven’s floor cracking up at me!
In the midst of all of my turmoil a peace came over me that went beyond my comprehension and I continued to worship the God of my salvation. I felt like Job.
“The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away; blessed be the name of the Lord!” Job 1:21
All of a sudden, I wasn’t so pressed to have the things I thought I should have before turning 30. My heart became overwhelmingly grateful that God’s thoughts and ways are not like my own and that His plans for my life far exceed anything I could ever imagine.
“For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.” Jeremiah 29:11
Today, I turn 30 and I am excited about it! I’m walking into this new decade of life with open arms – embracing all that God has for me. Instead of pouting over a dream the world says I should have, I’m thankful that God wrecked my world because I am now living His dream – a life that’s lost in Him.
"For whoever wishes to save his life will lose it; but whoever loses his life for My sake will find it.” Matthew 16:25
I didn’t know that in the year I turned 30, God would call me to give up everything I’ve ever known to follow Him. But because of my obedience, He’s given me all that I wanted and more. He turned my mourning into dancing, my sorrow to joy. He is my bridegroom, I am His bride and His Spirit has given birth to my spirit. He is the chief cornerstone in the foundation of my spiritual house and in due season He promises that I will reap the harvest of my labor, if I faint not.
So I say goodbye to my twisted twenties and hello to my thriving thirties!
Will you join me in celebrating my day of birth?
