Its been 5 days and I still have moments when it is hard to believe I am home. I must confess that the initial shock of being physically separated from my community combined with the culture shock the comes with our return to America has hit me harder than I anticipated. I couldn’t tell you why, but I definitely expected a smoother transition home. One of the questions I have faced time and again the last several days is: “What’s next?” and I have to admit that this is a question I often dread. I dread the question because my answer is “I don’t know.” In this time of transition, I am simply waiting on the Lord. I’m waiting for Him to speak clearly because my mind is currently flooded with a whirlwind of thoughts and emotions that cloud my ability to make a clear decision. Although the Race has taught me a great deal about patience and the value of waiting on the Lord, I must confess that my flesh has a tendency to be rather IMPATIENT.
This week I have asked myself many times what I am supposed to do while I am WAITING on the Lord. I don’t know how long I will He is calling me to wait, but I know that I want to be actively involved in something while I am waiting for Him to illuminate the path He has set before me. This morning, while getting ready for church, the Lord spoke and answered this question very clearly as I listened to a song by John Waller for the very first time. The words to the song were so real, they brought me to tears. I knew the moment I heard the second line that my Heavenly Father was speaking to me and making it clear exactly what He is calling me to do as I wait. Ironically, it is exactly what I have been doing for the last 11 months–loving, serving, worshiping, praying and watching Him move in the lives of those around me. I stand in awe of His patience, gentleness and faithfulness towards me yet again.
I want to share this song with you–lyrics below with a YouTube video to follow. Perhaps it will touch your heart the way it touched mine this morning. I ask you to please keep both me and my team in your prayers this week as we continue to go through this transition back home and into this new season of our lives. Thank You.
While I’m Waiting
I’m waiting
I’m waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I’m waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait
I’m waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I’m waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait
I will move ahead, bold and confident
Takeing every step in obedience
While I’m waiting
I will serve You
While I’m waiting
I will worship
While I’m waiting
I will not faint
I’ll be running the race
Even while I wait
I’m waiting
I’m waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I’m waiting on You, Lord
Though it’s not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait
I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting
I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting
I will serve you while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting on You, Lord
