I just wanted to start out by saying sorry for the lack of blogs, I know that some of yall have been waiting for them. Blogging is something that is really hard for me, because I hate talking about myself. So I though when I left to come on the race blogging would get easier, because I wouldn’t have to talk about myself. I would be able to just talk about some preson that I have meet. However for this first blog I feel that I’m suppose to talk a little bit about myself and what God is doing in me. Which is terrifying to so I have put it off for 3 months.
So here we go God has done a lot in 3 months way to much for me to right it all out. So I’m just going to pick one thing. My ministry host this month asked what has been one thing that has surprised you about the world race? My answer to this is realizing how much God is going to change you.
I Knew starting God was going to change me don’t get me wrong. But I started this race thinking I was good and had all my crap together. God quickly showed me that wasn’t the case. He showed me earily on that I’m a broken mess. And just because I’m 1’000s of miles doesn’t mean I left all my crap behind its here with me. And that its time to start facing it.
The problem with facing the stuff in your past is that it sucks and it hurts. And you have to trust God and if I’m being honest with yall that’s something I’m really struggling with. Trusting in God when it comes to my past. Tursting in God to heal me, tursting in God to show me where he was.
So that being said here is what I have learned. That it is okay to be broken and you have to go through the messy. And that going though the messy is a good thing because there is freedom on the other side. It just sucks while your in the middle of it but no one ever said it would be easzy.
But that is really all I have. I hope one day I can blog about be on the other side of this. thanks for all the support and prays.
