As I sat
through our eight hour drive to Georgia on Thursday, I spent some time thinking about why
training camp is so difficult; why it breaks people down. Without having gone
through training camp, I’m beginning to think it’s so hard because we all have
God in so many boxes. The way we were raised, the denominations we’ve been a
part of, the people we are friends with all influence our schemas about God.
These past few months, I’ve noticed how similar my closest friends are to me in
beliefs and basic theology. We may differ on some things but overall we believe
and worship in many of the same ways. Training camp is about to rock my world
on that box and MANY others. The difference between how I worship is going to
be vastly different from the way other people on my squad worship. I’m really
excited about being stretched in that way, but I also know it’s going to be
uncomfortable. When you put Presbyterians, Baptists,
Mennonites, Nazarenes, and whoever else in the same place, worship is going to
be nuts and amazing and like nothing else I’ve ever experienced. I’m ecstatic
to spend a week worshiping God with my new family and being stretched in new
ways.
I don’t want
God to be in boxes, but I know that I have Him in some just based on my own
experiences. God is going to rock my world this week and show me just how BIG
and majestic He is. This adventure I’m about to embark on with the Lord is
going to change my life and me as a person in ways I can’t even fathom right
now. Trust and openness keep coming back to my mind for what I need. These are
my words that resonate deeply with what gets in my way of having what I want. The
lack of trust and openness stop me from deepening relationships. They limit me
in my relationship with God. They keep me in control (false perception) and don’t
allow God to move. That’s going to change.
Here I am
Lord: wide open, fearlessly trusting.
Training
camp, I’ll be seeing you soon.
The girls I road-tripped with in Metropolis, IL! Thanks to Owen for taking this!
