This is a journal entry that I decided to post…. 🙂
During service today a little girl, about 5 years old came and sat in my lap. She put her head on my chest and sank into my body pretty perfectly. As we were breathing I realized it was in unicine. When I breathed in, so did she. When I breathed out, so did she. Just about the whole service she sat in my lap. While holding her in my arms it reminded me of the Fathers Love. He tolds me tightly and as we breath it's always in unicine. He always holds me and doesn't want to let go. He wants me to melt in His arms, feel his hearbeat and let it be known how much I am loved and how much He loves His people, His creation. As I was reminded of this while holding the little girl I saw Christ in her. I saw Christ in all His people. I saw the love, once again, for His people and I feel it.
At the beginning of the service Tiffany gave me a bracelet. I realized it was my same one that I had given last week to a young girl named Nadia. I met her at the orphanage. She told Tiffany to give it to me. I was really confused. I asked if she saw her at church. I invited her last week and she told me she would come since I invited her. I looked outside and saw her outside the building. She ended up sitting in the church finally. I am sooo glad she came =) And she invited some of her friends to come with her, including the little girl that sat in my lap.
After service I went up to her and gave her a big hug. With the loud worship music blasting at church I asked her why she didn't want the bracelet I gave her? She replied with watery eyes, "I was thinking about how I have nothing to give you in return." Right away my heart sank. I hugged her, looked into her watery eyes and said, "Nadia, I love you because Jesus loves you. Remember always that with love there is no need to give in return. It is unconditional. No matter what. I love you because Jesus loves you." Then we hugged and she clung tightly to me. I asked while we were holding eachother if she understood and would remember that always. She said, "ok, yea I will."
Man, my hearts burns for her. For people like Nadia. I pray that she has a family to show her true love. That it's not based on love only when she has something to return. I pray that she remembers that forever and thank you that I was given the chance to share your love. I pray that she will look at the bracelet I gave back to her and always remembers the Father's love.
