I am fighting to stay here, I am still over $2000.00 short of my financial goal that is due today. I believe I am suppose to be here, its not yet time for me to go home and in some miraculous way, that will glorify the Lord alone , because my resources are tapped out, I have called and emailed and done online events and my efforts have fallen short. The money will be in my account and I will continue on.
I am called to speak life, over people, land and nations. I am made to call out greatness in those around me, to speak truth in love, to defeat fear and doubt, to be a woman that walks in confidence in my identity, to love the unloved, to pour out grace on others, to change atmospheres, to bring joy, to speak Kingdom, to teach the Gospel, to live in obedience and abandonment, to prefer others, to defeat darkness and bring light and so much more….…..and this is just the beginning.
I am not the same person I was four months ago when I started this journey, the Lord has taught me more than I can even begin to share about life, love, people, my own heart, my identity, his love for me, his heart, why I feel what I feel, how my words effect those around me, how to really see people, my own selfishness, what need really is, how to live in community, whats really important, how to walk in grace and so much more……..and he’s not done with me yet.
Every single person on my squad has taught me something, whether they know it or not. I am so incredible blessed for the life spoken over me, the positive feedback, the vulnerability, the tears and joy and the random dance parties, to see peoples hearts and watch them become more beautiful, to see chains fall off and boxes destroyed, to see walls come down and the desire to know Jesus more and more be voiced, for all the hard questions that have been answered, for the massive amounts of healing in every single one of us, and so much more, because of this journey……….and we still have 7 more months left.
I am so thankful for every person in my life that has fought for me to be here, friends, family, team mates, squad mates, random strangers, and AIM staff. Every donation, every prayer, sacrifice and financial blessing has helped me to get this far and not only completely change my life, but also allowed me to speak into the lives of so many around the world, to see the Word in motion, Gods heart in action through people, to see justice brought , lives changed, and the name of Jesus glorified throughout the earth, and so much more……….and I have been blessed to be a part of it.
Every country has shifted my perspective, strangers that I don’t even speak their language have become family, I’ve fallen in love with sweet little children, I ‘ve seen horrible things that have broke my heart and beautiful things that have been so humbling. I’ve experienced so many cultures, foods, languages , I’ve lived in cities, in the jungle, and in places of severe poverty, I’ve rode elephants and climbed mountains, been to remote villages and met some incredible people and so much more……….by faith there is more to this journey.
I want to grow more, to see more lives changed, to become more of who God made me to be, to see those around me step into who they are meant to be, to love more and be used by God in new ways, to see how God is moving in other places, to learn to love better, and so much more……… I am in awe that this is my life.
