MY MONK DREAM …
I dreamt Shannon, Maggie, and I went to the monastery, like we do everyday (in real life), …but this time the monks there captured us for their pleasure. Mag volunteered to go first (wanting to get it over with) into a room with several monks. Shan and I were sitting outside the room on the ground.
Then all the sudden I was walking by myself. I came to some children living there in the monastery. I started talking to a little girl (she was beautiful, a mix, dark hair and eyes) Then a beautiful woman came up (obviously her mother an older version of the young girl) She was kind. She was very glad to see me and gave me a big hug. I realized she was so happy because I was here to take her place.
Then I was walking with a monk. He was a much older man. He was a powerful monk. We had light conversation. I was being kind and pretending to show interest in what he was talking about. I was trying to see good in him and like him. I knew that he was keeping me as his new wife. We were walking along a wall/fence near the entrance of the monastery. I looked out beyond the gate and knew I'd never be free again. I was feeling sad but knew I couldn't let it show. I wanted to keep this man happy and honor him so my life would not be miserable. He kept smacking me on the butt and laughing. He was flirting with me but testing me. He wanted me to like, respect, and submit to him. I smiled and pretended not to mind. I searched him and his face to see if I could learn to like him with time. He wasn't ugly. I could sense that he desperately wanted me to like and love him. I could tell that he desired me because I was beautiful to Him but that he wouldn't be truly happy unless he felt that I really loved him back. After some time of beating around the bush (I knew what was going on) I just came out and said it … "I will marry you ( as if it was a choice) but I AM A CHRISTIAN… You can raise our sons however you like, but our daughters belong to me, and they will be Christians too" He became very angry at my boldness as dishonor and disrespect. My gut told me that he immediately felt bad … He desired a loving relationship and this was not a good start. I knew that his desire for love was his weakness so I dropped some tears for pity and told Him " you can make me marry you, you can make me have sex with you, but you can NEVER make me love you if you don't let me be a Christian!". Then the dream was over.
I woke up from this dream emotionally stirred. I just couldn't get it out of my mind. I thought about it all day. I knew it meant something …but what? I was proud of my self for how I handled the monk … I was standing up for Christianity… YAY ME!( I was a little cocky over my boldness.) Still the dream had a very heavy tone and I felt it all day. I needed to know what it was about and why I had it … The dream was so powerful and I couldn't let it go.
That day I shared my dream with my squad leader, Megan. She happened to have a Christian book about dreams on her. She had been waiting to give it to the right person. She gave it to me. I was so honored and excited about the book. I tucked it away and hoped I would have time to read it soon.
A few days later it was time to leave our mission town. I traveled all day from bus to taxi and I was sick. My team met up with all the other teams from our squad. We had been sent to different places all over China and were now meeting back at the same hotel we began this journey. (the same hotel I had had my visions for my team a month earlier and got locked in the bathroom:) I stayed in bed for the first night (and day) and read my dream book. I couldn't put it down. It wasn't a dream interpretation book. It didn't tell me that the color red means love or anything like that. It talked about how spiritual dreams are. How God and/or Satan can work in our minds through our dreams. Spiritual warfare can take place in our sleep. Most importantly God speaks to us in our sleep!
The book encouraged me to pray for dreams, and to ask God to speak to me and keep a journal of my dreams. I had already written this dream down the first day I had it because I knew it was important. Half way through the book I got sleepy and decided to nap. I prayed that God would send me a dream while I napped. Then passed out needing rest and healing.
I did dream while I was napping … I saw Proverbs 3:5 & Proverbs 3:8 … I didn't remember what scriptures those were. I'm still working on Bible knowledge. So I woke up anxious to see what they were about. I told Shannon who was sitting on the bed next to me … I'm going to look up my dream scriptures. I grabbed my bible and ran to the bathroom (still sick). So I sat on the toilet and read these …
Proverbs 3:5 Trust in the Lord with all your heart, do not depend on your own understanding.
Okay, yea … This is one I've heard many times … It's classically good! Never gets old … We all need this!!!
Proverbs 3:8 This will bring health to your body and nourishment to your bones.
Wow, I'm sitting on the toilet and sick … I yelled out to Shannon in excitement … What I had just read. I prayed for a dream and got it … GOD spoke directly to me and my current situation!
In the next few hours I finished my book. My mind was racing with passion toward God. I felt so deeply connected. I actually have a relationship with God. He speaks right to me! We actually are communicating. By that night I was feeling great physically and spiritually! Then I all the sudden realized what my dream was about. Much of this dream, especially the first half, is personal about myself and my past life. The buddhist monastery was the perfect medium to get my attention. The shocking parts was … Wow … ready for this …
(Que the dramatic music)
The monk was God!
Yep, I know … But he wasn't a Christian … Huh?
No wonder the dream was so powerful. I walked and talked with God himself. God loves metaphor just read any prophetic dream had by prophets in the bible. Just read Revelation. God communicates with a lot of metaphor and I love metaphor … So we communicate great this way!
However, reading back over my dream the cockiness disappeared. I was being very rebellious. I was set in my ways. I was arguing with God. I was telling Him what I was/wasn't going to do. I was putting conditions on my loving Him. The gate and looking out at freedom … Really was pre-race life. God was ready to change and rock my world. I was so busy looking back and trying to hold on to the things I thought and felt. I was sad and fearful of looking forward at my life with God (the monk.) I was very untrusting and trying to control my situation. I didn't completely mind being with Him .. I just wanted things my way.
Christianity just represented my strong human convictions or understandings. God wasn't telling me to be a Buddhist … LOL … he was pointing out that I am still in the infant stages with Him. My understanding of Him and my relationship with Him has been complicated. He loves me so much even though I fight His plans. The things I believe in and want may seriously pale in comparison to His plans for my life. He was making it clear where we are currently at and where he wants to go … Much deeper … Much higher! He knows, feels, and wants things for me that I can't even dream of … Yet.
This dream has so much metaphoric meaning … Every time I read over it I see something I didn't before. I shared the most important part though with you. I encourage everyone to dream with God…. it's awesome! I would gladly help you analyze them too, if I can. Unlike many dream Interpretation books say… Meanings of objects, colors etc are not general. They are very personal to the dreamer. However, I truly know I am gifted and God will help me help you, if it is His will.
Heres to Sweet Godly Dreams for all of us,
Jessica xoxo
