So here is it the blog that I don’t want to write, the words I don’t want to type the reasons I got sent home.
Basically I got sent home because of lack of growth on my part, my lack of servant hood and in lots of thinking and talking later I realized myself after I got home that I really don’t have the same beliefs as the AIM organization, I believe in God and all that goes with it but there are a few other things that I honestly don’t agree with and that kind of freak me out.
It was for the health of the team and ultimately the squad.
So I’m home, I was going to be in Boston but for other reasons that I really can’t talk about I’m back in San Diego. Back in a place I never wanted to but God has other plans for me and looking back on the past few years he’s always had the same plan; to work on me, my emotions, my thought process, strengthen my heart for anything and everything that comes my way. The Race taught me a lot: how to listen and who I’m not: a people person, confident (working on it though) a slain in the spirit kind of Christian.
I did learn that I love to Love, it’s sometimes hard but sometimes I realize that the only things I really know how to do are listen and Love. As in be there when I’m needed as in a shoulder to cry on or just needing to be heard. I think that’s what God wants from me but for now there are things that he needs me to work on in myself. So he took everything away (my room, my World Race friends who I love soooooo much, everything that made me feel safe; taken away) in order to force me to finally follow his plan for my life
So this is what I’m going to do until he tells me what I’m going to do about my future, where I’m going to go, who I’m going to be. There is so much I want but I know now that I’ll never get any of it until I do what the Father tells me to do.
Lyrics to While I’m Waiting :
I’m waiting
I’m waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I’m waiting on You, Lord
Though it is PAINFUL
But patiently, I will wait
I will move ahead, bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience
While I’m waiting
I will serve You
While I’m waiting
I will worship
While I’m waiting
I will not faint
I’ll be running the race
Even while I wait
I’m waiting
I’m waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I’m waiting on You, Lord
Though it’s not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait
I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting
I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting
I will serve you while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting on You, Lord
So in the mean time I’ll listen, obey and pray for what is next because honestly for the first time in my life I really…..seriously don’t know what the future holds, God’s got it though and I can trust that.
So this is my final world race chapter finished, but the new book is just beginning…..
To my World Race family:
